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mollyoly · 12 Aug 2009

Our Beautiful perfect baby girl Olivia Ellen "OLY" was born asleep due to NHS errors, on the 30th Oct 2006 at 42 weeks and 5 days, She weighed 6lb 4oz. We waited and longed for oly to come and join our family, It has taken us this long to come to terms with losing oly, We have had so much support from family and SANDS. I dont think we would have been able to get through these very difficult years without the support they have given us.
To get me through the rough days i use to write poems about oly here is one i writen for her first anniversary when we had her ashes blessed.

The days, The weeks, The months have gone by, I cant seem to mend this broken heart of mine. I think about you everyday, You were so perfect in everyway. 6lb 4oz, So beautiful and strong. Blue eyes, Blonde hair and 47cms long. You had your daddy's mouth and no doubt had his charm, His breathtaking smile, But hopefully my sense of calm. My hopes and dreams were shattered when you left, I had to pick up the peices and try to do my best. It's hard to be brave and say it's ok, When you really cant face another day. You left us at birth in more ways than one, To join our maker little angel for he needed another one. God bless your soul you special little girl. Your loved, Your Cherished, You should be here. But one day we'll meet again i have no fear x x x x

2 Little hands that will never grip,
2 litte legs that no longer kick,
A delicate face that will never cry,
And tiny hands that cant wave goodbye,
2 precious feet that will never walk,
soft blue lips that will never talk,
But a beautiful soul that has gone up above,
And left me with feelings and memories and love.

I also would like to send our forever love to our beautiful little IVF baby ANGEL who we lost on 20th oct 2009 at 9 weeks

We love and miss you both so so much, Your all i think of from the min my eyes open to my dreams, Sleep well angel's

Love Mummy and Daddy x x x x

Hutchy · 30 Aug 2007

Mollyoly

I can't imagine what you have been through, to get so far in your pregnancy is so heartbreaking.. I ony made it to 19 weeks and I have felt immense pain and sadness since it happened 3 weeks ago....

It sounds like you have got a wonderful support network in your family that helped you get through some difficult times...

I hope and pray that we will all get to hold and play with our family one day and can enjoy christmas like a proper family...

Hutchy xx

EBS · 04 Nov 2008

Mollyoly,

I'm so sorry to hear of your losses. You've been through such a terrible time. I hope 2010 brings better luck for you and your family.

I love your poem. If you don't mind I wouldn't mind it or something similar being read at my daughters funeral, but only if it's OK with you. She died 15 days ago on hers and her twin brother birthday. We're so gutted.

Take care, lots of love

Cheryl xxxx

janetteph · 29 Sep 2006

Mollyoly i too was saddened to read of the loss of your little girl then again of your little angel at nine weeks, the poems are beautiful , i truly wish you all the luck in the universe for your forthcoming treatment,may 2010 bring all your wishes true x janette...

mollyoly · 12 Aug 2009

Hi Cheryl,

Im so sorry to hear of your loss hun.
I've not been on here for a while i hope everything went as well as it could do at your baby's funeral. How is your other little one doing?? It's very hard i know but you have to take each day as it comes, And give yourself time to grive properly. We start our 2nd ivf treatment this week, We are very excited but also very nervous. Going to be dreading each and every scan we have. But im feeling very positive.
Please if you can face it give SANDS a call, They made the world of differance for me. 02074365881 That's there number they will talk to you for hours and just listen to you.

I hope times get easier for you soon.
All my love and thoughts
Deni x x x