CARE Fertility Bulletin Board

starbright · 10 Jun 2010

Hi all. How is everyone. i hope all is ok. Sorry I have not been on here lately, I have just been blocking it all out and having a bit of normaility. Well we should be starting Frozen cycle next week, Mixed feelings really. Excited but dreading the potential heartache again xx

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi Ladies,

Just wondering how is everyone doing/

I have received my protocol on saturday, starting end of Dec/beginning of Jan.
Feel excited, scared, hopefull, wiser.... mixed emotions really.
I have decided not to tell enyone but one close friend and my inlaws. But not goiong to go into dates with my inlaws. I think I so believed in positive result, that BFN wasn't an option for me. So my whole world just crashed. Will be better if noone will know.... Obviously my hubby as he will be needed at some stage ... Laughing

Thinking about you all.

LoL Stella xxx

wibblywobbly · 09 May 2010

Hi Stella. Sounds like you are full steam ahead. Really hope all works out for you this time hun.

Starbright - how you doing?

AFM, well i decided to give the BB a wide berth for a while, didn't think it was doing me much good to be honest as everytime i read about a success or a failure i was having some pretty crap feelings myself. Anyway the break away from BB and from cycling has done me the power of good. DH and I have talked about adoption and are going to a meeting ina couple of weeks to get some more info. We don't think it is the route for us, but thought we'd have a look into it just to be sure. We've also agreed to try another cycle in Feb/March time. Sooooo, back on the diet, back to healthy eating and exercise, back to planning and thinking and worrying and wishing - here we go again! I am trying to keep grounded this time, not getting my hopes up, but not being to down about it either.

Take care all.
xxx

nicster · 19 Aug 2010

Hi Stella, hi wibbly,

How weird is that wibbly, I've avoided the bb's like the plague aswell, tonight is the first time I have been on for ages a d I can't believe you've been on on the same day ! I'm so glad you r feeling stronger again. Well done Stella for trying again, good luck Hun. Hopefully I'm going to try again in jan, they've given me the short protocol this time, so at least no long down regulating !

Really good to hear from you both again

Nicster x

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi ladies,
So nice to hear from you both. I am glad we are all getting there...

Wibbly - How great that you talked about adoption! I would adopt tomorrow if my DH wanted to go down that way - he isn't ready for that step. My sis adopted two little monkeys and they are so beautifull! And you never know, if you concentrate on adoption, or at least think about it, you will feel more at ease with next IVF - less stressed, therefore it'l give you better chance. I am scared of the emotional pain again, but have to keep positive! x

Nicster - We should be 'in it' together again. I am starting my injections at the beginning of January, egg sharing again - so long protocol. Thinking it will all be happening at the end of Jan...
You have had some building work done, haven't you? How is that going?

Look forward to hear from you again ladies.

LOL
Stella xxx

starbright · 10 Jun 2010

Hi all. Nice to hear from you all, I m sorry too but I have been avoiding the forum because it was making me worse but have been having a sneeky peek every now and then. I currently doing a FET at mo. Finding it hard but better when I am busy. We have kept it quiet this time. Only my two close friends know and parents know we are doing it but not any dates. i am still very deflated with it all at the moment and have felt miserable with the drugs this time, prob cuz my positivity isn t there. Anyway hope to have two put back two weeks yesterday if they defrost ok and then the OTD should be around christmas eve. I am very crap with my timing but will just go with the flow. Not going come on here much though as it makes me focus on the IVF and this time I trying to do everything but (I not doing great at that though) Will let you all know anyway. Good luck to everyone and lovely to hear how everyone is getting on xx

wibblywobbly · 09 May 2010

Hey girls. Nice to hear from all three of you.

Starbright - so pleased you are doing FET soon, and fingers crossed for the BFP on Xmas eve, or thereabouts. Wouldn't that just be the best Xmas pressie ever!

Nicster - good to hear from you too hun. Jan cycle eh? Short protocol is way better, but they've said i'll be doing a long one the next time we try. Well, nothing ventured nothing gained, willing to try anything! Let's hope the SP is good for you and the LP for me!

Stella - yeah, adoption is worth the consideration, but not really sure yet. I didn't think i would want to do the whole ivf thing again after tlast time, but time is a great healer and actually i think i want to keep going! DH having a fit about the money - but i've made it clear that we have equity in the house if needs be! LOL

Anyway, really great to hear from you all, sending you lots of love, it's so special to share these moments with you guys, thanks for being here! XXX

Ellie5 · 12 Sep 2008

Sorry to gatecrash ... just wanted to say Good Luck to Starbright ! xxx and also nice to see Wibbly you were a rock through the 2ww and I am keeping everything crossed for you if you do decide to go again xxxxxxxxxxx

nicster · 19 Aug 2010

Hi Starbright, how are you doing hun, you sound really down, its fab that you are trying again, I know its easier said than done but try and be positive, theres no reason why it cant be the best christmas ever for you, just think how amazing that would be. You having ET next week then ?

Stella, yes weve finished all the building work, just got lots and lots of decorating to do now, at least the end is in site, going to try and get most of it done before christmas so we can concentrate on the treatment in the new year. That would be good if we can be cycle buddies.

Wibbly, I really hope you try again hun, I really dont think your IVF journey is over yet, Ive got a feeling that it will work for you next time. When do you think you might try again ? go on give it a go in Jan then we can do it together again x

Ellie, congratulations hun, is that two little miracles I can see? when are you due ? hows the pregnancy going ?

It is so lovely to hear from you all again x

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi Ladies,
Sounds we are all doing what we can to keep us going... Christmas can be a good thing - at least it's a distraction!
I understand why everyone kept avoiding bb. I made a mistake and just kept reading and reading and I think it played havoc in my head. Think my hubby is going through his crisis now.... Just hope he gets over it quicklly...
Nicster - Bet you are relieved about the building work - decorating can be fun if you make it that way (hard work, but if done together, it brings you bigger satisfaction and can bring you closer). I am sure we will be in touch and floow each others progress. x
Starbright - GOOD LUCK!!! XXX loads of baby dust!
Wibbly- I am glad you feel like not giving up. That's important. Money is important, but can't make you happy. And things always sort themselves out somehow.... I mean financially... xxx
Ellie - Congratulations!!! Hope next few months go quickly and smoothly... xxx

I am sending loads of love to everyone!
xxx stella xxx

starbright · 10 Jun 2010

Hi all. Thanks for the lovely messages. I am fine. I have passed the next stage (Its like taking exams) and going for ET next wed if they defrost ok that morning. Having two put in this time, Working lots of shifts this time so its keeping me busy. I just worrying it wont work already though as I have a hydrosapinex and been reading up and say they affect chances and tube should be removed before ivf, but i kept asking and my consultatnt who said that research is minimal so he didnt advice me having tube out at this stage but lots of people on here have had their tube removed. i have done it again..... read lots of posts and starting worrying again. No point though as i may as well carry on and see what happens but i know if it fails, that will play on my mind.

It is so lovely to catch up with you ladies and read how everyone is.

Ellie. Wow lovely scan picture. I was searching through loads of posts to see how you were dooing as the last few I read you were bleeding. i so happy things settled down for you. You were always so very helpful in your replies to me.

Keep positive everyone and keep posting to keep me updated how you are all doing
xxxx

tiger777 · 26 Apr 2010

Hi all, wondering if I could please join your thread?

I had a BFN in Aug following our first IVF treatment and like many of you I stayed away from the BB for a while, I've just done a FET which unfortunately ended with a BFN yesterday so have been feeling a little down. Didn't post on the board this time round but think that was a mistake as missed the support and banter.

Have had some uplifting news today though, have been given a follow up appointment in about 10 days so am hoping to start a fresh cycle feb/mar.

Stella star - lovely to see your still here and will soon be trying again, I know how hard aug was for you and admire your strength in going for it again. Weird as was only thinking of you the other day and now found you on the board again.

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hello Tiger,

I am very very sorry about your BFN. My heart goes out to you. I am just looking for right words to use, to comfort you, but only thing I can say is that time is greatest healer.

I found that at worst times there was nothing anyone could have said or done to make me feel better and then suddenly (maybe about 3-4 weeks ago) that feeling just went, disapeared in the clouds like if it didn't even exist. BB is great, because we all have similar experiences and know that sometimes it is better just to listen than to give advise.... So please know, if you need us - we are here for you! xxxx
Good thing your follow up appointment - it will keep you going.

Yes lady, it was pretty tough, but I suppose this new go gave me new strength.... I look at the previous go as a test one... So, January - here I come!!!

I am sending you lots and lots of love and virtual hugs.

XXX Stella XXX

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi Ladies,

Hope you are all ok xxx

Starbright - GOOD LUCK for tomorrow!!! Fingers and toes crossed for you. Let us know how it'l go.

My period is due sometimes this week - all over the show after IVF, so can't predict date... From then - 21 days to start! I keep focusing on positive outcome, making attempts to ged rid of all thoughts I had last time and just stay calm. Hard thing to achieve when you are hormonal, isn't it?

Anyway, how is everyone?

Sending you all lots of love.

Stella xxx

wibblywobbly · 09 May 2010

Hi girlies - how are you all?

Tiger, welcome hun, so sorry about your BFNs. It is heartbreaking, but as Stella says, times is a great healer and you will feel better, eventually. Just take some time for yourself now.

Stella - not long now then chick - good luck on the down regging xxx

Starbright - fingers crossed for you for tomorrow babe, lets hope that BFP is yours for the taking and that it is the happiest christmas ever for you xxx

Nicster, thanks for the good wishes. Not made the final decision yet about another attempt, and desperately need to lose this fat i've piled on - what am i like! Maybe Feb or March though.

Ellie - so good to hear from you. How are those little babies doing? When are you due? It can't be long now. xx

Take care all. love wibbly

starbright · 10 Jun 2010

Hi all, hope everyone is ok. Just a quick update from me. Had a traumatic day. They had to defrost all six of my blasts, the first 4 didnt make it so I had to keep waiting for follow up phone calls but in the end the final 2 did make it so I have got two blasts on board now.... OTD 21st Dec so a bit earlier than I thought.

Feel really relaxed now which is nice. I spoke to another consultant today and he says if it doesnt work, he would advice me to have my tube out so was a bit annoyed as if it doesnt work, id feel I should have been adviced to have it removed in the first place but we will see what happens now and what will be will be but again the dr said they were both very good grades. xxxxx

starbright · 10 Jun 2010

BFN again for me ladies x

Kurly · 14 Dec 2010

starbright
So sorry to hear your news - please try to enjoy Xmas & start afresh for 2011. I'm testing the day after tomorrow and that's the game plan up my sleeve if I need it.
xxx

nicster · 19 Aug 2010

Oh starbright I'm so sorry, you must be devastated, I bet ur dreading Xmas, have u got you review booked ? Thinki g of u Hun x
Welcome kurly, fingers crossed for you x

Wibbly and Stella how's things with u both ? Have u started your cycle Stella ?

Hi to everyone else, thinking about u all x

Nicster x

starbright · 10 Jun 2010

Hi Nicster, Thanks for your message. Im ok. Had a cry and picked myself up, Got a review booked next week. On the positive side i have been to see the GP and he refering me in to get my tube removed so i have got funding for that which is good. Dont know if i need to have the immune tests done as well. Its all so confusing and you don t know what to do for the best. When is the right time to stop or do you carry on. It costs so much money. think again what to do next year after we have had some time out to think.

Kurly: how have you got on today

Have a lovely christmas everyone. xx

nicster · 19 Aug 2010

I know what you mean, ur head says stop but your heart says you have to carry on, because the thought of the alternative is just to hard to contemplate. My advice would be to get the tube removed, take advice from care on further tests and save like mad and have a date at the back of your mind when u want to try again, for me having that type of plan helps me get through x x I know it's going to be hard Hun but try to enjoy Christmas as much as you can xx

Nicster x

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi Ladies,

Oh Starbright - I am so sorry! I hope you managed to get through Christmas somehow.
Sending you lots of love. xxx

Sorry I haven't been here for a while - Prechristmas was bit busy for me. Back at work now - only for 4 hrs a day.

Nicster - I received my drugs on 23rd - all waiting for me to start on new Years day! New beginnings...

I am not sure how I feel about it. All is in gods hands.

Hope you all had nice christmas - please think about me.xxx

LOL to you all

Stella
xxx

nicster · 19 Aug 2010

Hi Stella, looks like we'll be on the rollercoaster together, I start my drugs on the 6 th jan (short protocol). I'm really excited but really scared too ! We had a lovely Christmas so I feel all relaxed and ready to go so fingers crossed ! R u taking any special supplements ?

Nicster x

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hello Nicster,

Fingers crossed for both of us!!! xxxx It's great we are in it together. xxx

I am only taking Pregnacare Conception. I am trying to eat healthy diet - nothing processed, organic dairy products. I was having reflexology, got myself relaxation CD and booking accupuncture session for January. I am really going to try to eat loats of protein during stimming. Think your test date might be before me, we are going away on 13th jan for long weekend, that will delay stimulation as I dont want to start while not here - just in case we get stranded abroad. I am doing eggshare again, so praying for more eggies.
Think I am more relaxed this time than last time. It is all in gods hands...
R u doing anything different?
look forward to your posts.
xx Stella

nicster · 19 Aug 2010

I'm taking a pregnacare type supplement and trying to eat healthy and avoid stress, I def want to increase my protein aswell because I think egg quality was a problem for me last time. I was thinking of taking Spirulina powder, this is supposed to be very very high in protein and I have heard quite a few people recommend it x

Nicster x