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Hi Ladies
Well this is my second and last go at IVF and I am due to start at the end of this month. I am scared to death as I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks last time. I have also had a nightmare getting my meds this time but fingers crossed I am on the home straight now and I will be ready to start my injections as soon as AF arrives at the end of next week.
If anyone fancies joining me on the wonderful journey it would be nice to cycle with you.
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Posted: Mon Jul 18, 2011 4:01 pm |
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Hi Sar
I'm just popping on to wish you all the very best. Will check back to see how you are doing if that is ok with you, just really want it to work out for you after what you went thru last time.
As you can see from ticker I'm due early Oct and getting very nervous and excited. If you look on Bumps Babies and Beyond and the thread for Jan/Feb/Mar BFP's I posted a bump pic a week or two ago. Have you heard anything from Jojo?
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Posted: Mon Jul 18, 2011 8:44 pm |
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Hi Sar,
I'm due to start end of July, also my second and probably my last go.
I was a little apprehensive about going through it all again but now i'm quite excited.
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Posted: Wed Jul 20, 2011 11:24 am |
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Hi
Stargazer - hello I have had a look at the pic and you are cooking nicely. Thanks ever so much for your support it means a lot. Do you know what your having? Just wait till you have your little bundle in your arms it will all be worth it. Now re Jo Jo I am not sure which you mean as there is one leaving messages on any single ladies out there but I know that I got confused at one point on my last attempt because I was messaging the wrong Jo Jo as there were 2 ladies leaving messages.
Hi Zhanabanana - crumbs I think I might have got carried away with the an's in your name LOL! Nice to have someone to go through this stage with. I am on a short protocol at Manchester where are you? Sorry to hear that yout first go didnt work. We will keep our fingers crossed that we can get BFP's and in 9 months or so have a little bundle.
Take care
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Posted: Wed Jul 20, 2011 10:37 pm |
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and Hi Ladies
Can I join you please? Every other thread I try to join I seem to get ignored. I think it is because i have joined ones where people have started already.
I am on the long protocol and start injecting 21 days into my cycle which will be next Thursday. i am on 0.5 mls of Buserelin for down regging and then 2.5 Menopur for stims.
Sar/Zhannabanana - sorry your previous attempts have not been successful. This is my first time we are having ICSI also due to male factor. My hubby has 100% anitbodies and low motility. I am hopeful that it will work first time but obviously still nervous that it might not be. You both say that this is probably going to be your last attempts. Is there any reason for this i.e. funding or do you just feel that you wouldn't be able to do it all again? I haven't even started properly yet and I keep thinking "when would i stop?". This whole process is very consuming and seems to be the only thing that I can think about at the moment.
Kindest regards.
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Posted: Thu Jul 21, 2011 9:51 am |
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Hi Sar,
I am at Sheffield, won't start dr until mid August, all being well, my last cycle I totally skipped my period which has never happend before so I was delayed. I am on long protocol and yeah keeping fingers crossed for everyone 
Hi Fingers,
You must be feeling quite excited and nervous, the first few days of injecting is scary, wondering if you are doing everything right, that is when these message boards come in to their own because there is always someone who has been through it.
This is probably my last attempt mainly due to funding!! My first attempt I just kind of assumed it would work with us using icsi. Then I only had 2 eggs that fertilised thats when I realised it may not go my way.
Had the 2 nice embies put back but wasn't meant to be. Now this time I am scared that none of the eggs will fertilise, that would be absolutely devastating.
You need to get used to not being able to think about anything else lol. It totally takes over your life another reason this may be my last attempt.
Speak to you all soon
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Posted: Thu Jul 21, 2011 1:31 pm |
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Welcome Fingers ofcourse you can join in- I hope you can cross them for us too LOL. It will be my last attempt one because of my age I am 41 now and two because I just cant afford another go. Get prepared for such a ride because trust me there are so many ups and downs. First I had to get over the injection fear then I nearly had to cancel my cycle because I had only grown 2 follies then over the weekend 10 sprouted up. I was so down then so up. Then you get to EC and see how many eggs you get ,then you have to wait to see how many fertilise then you have to wait to see if they take and how many can go back then you wait again for 16 days before you can test then low and behold if you get a BFP you have to wait another 2 weeks for a scan then you get a big high when you see your babies heart beat then you wait again for another 2 weeks and go for another scan. Unfortunately thats where my biggest low came as I could see my baby on screen but there was no movement or heart beat and my world fell apart. As well as being such an amazing thing this journey can be sooooooo cruel in many ways.
I am going into this last attempt with such a different fear than from the first time. Just be prepared to jump many many hurdles and you will be fine. How they say you should be stress free I dont know.
Dont worry about it consumming you. Trust me this last month I have eat slept and drank IVF. Trying to get the GP to give me drugs on the NHS then waiting to see then getting refused and then drugs not being available and having to find alternatives etc. Today I have just spent 3/4 of an hour phoning chemists for my trigger drug. Thankfully finally I got a chemist that knew what I was on about and he has ordered it for me! Trust me the relief is amazing. I have not been able to concentrate at work for weeks. Had a break down last week and just cried all afternoon. Then at the weekend I did the same. Get used to your hormones giving you jip. LOL. Now I have probably frightened you to death. I must say that it is also the most amazing experience I have ever had and I wish I had had the courage to do it years ago. I will be a single mummy if it works but I have a very supportive family which is good. Last time my mum got that excited when she came to the scan she was practically attacking the big screen pointing out the baby. Quite funny really!! LOL.
Zhana - Sheffield hey? Is it a full clinic there or do you have to come to Manchester for EC etc? Shame re your last AF how strange mind you bodies are very strange things aren't they.
Lets keep our fingers crossed that we all get our dreams come true.
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Posted: Fri Jul 22, 2011 9:21 am |
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Hi Sar,
Wow, I felt bad about my BFN don't know how I would have coped in your situation.
I too wish I had started this process years ago, i'm 35 but we have been ttc for over 10 years but only just started the ivf journey because life kept getting in the way - silly me!!
Yep Sheffield is a full clinic but I live a good hour away from there so this time when I get to the stimming scans stage I am going to take a week off work. I haven't told them about the ivf and kept having to lie about why I was late in etc and I found that incredibly stressfull.
Hey fingersandtoescrossed,
Hope we haven't scared you to death lol, just take each day as it comes and go with the flow!!!!
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Posted: Fri Jul 22, 2011 11:27 am |
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Hi
When I decided to start my IVF journey I wanted IUI only as I didn't realise I didn't work. After taking the advice of the consultant to have a Hycosy to check if my tubes were ok I found that both of them were blocked so I would never have been able to have a child naturally anyway. I never knew all those years I was on the pill. I went to the docs at 38 to start my journey after breaking up with a chap who had decided that as he already had 1 son he didn't want another so I thought about it and made my choice. I was told when I went to the docs that I was too old for NHS treatment and also too fat and I had to lose weight about 5 stone!!!! I started to try and lost 2 stone and thought I cant wait till I have lost the rest as time is ticking away so thats when I got in touch with Care and they were amazing. I am so grateful to them for the opportunity they gave me and the excellent service I have recieved from them so far.
I too was worried about getting time off work as I work in a school hence the trying again now in the 6 weeks hols but I could not have been more supported by the Head. When I told her she was so kind I sobbed all the way through telling her I have no idea why just its a very emotions thing and I was so worried about asking for time off but as I say she couldnt have been nicer. I am a 2 hour drive from Manchester so for scans etc I have to have the whole day off work but it wasn't a problem and it was all kept very private which I was grateful of. I know what you mean about worrying about having time off its just another stress.
Fingers please don't be worried and put off it really is the best decision you have made to go ahead and do this.
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Posted: Fri Jul 22, 2011 8:30 pm |
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Hi Girls
I hope you don't mind me joining in.....I'm starting my first cycle of IVF tomorrow. First injection on short protocol tomorrow evening.
my history is at the bottom but so far I have had a BFN on an IUI cycle & before that 10months of clomid all BFN TTC ourselves. I suffered an early miscarriage a year ago after conceiving naturally after 18months of TTC.
Feeling quite excited about starting now. Just want to get the first jab out the way!!!
Any advice for me starting my first cycle?
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 4:25 pm |
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Hi Ladies,
Would it be ok for me to join you too?
Sar - Im so sorry about your miscarriage, this journey is so traumatic and unpredictable but the desire for the end result makes us stronger.
Shopgirl - I'm sorry to hear about your miscarriage too, its such a dreadful thing especially when everyone around you seems to be able to conceive and carry on with their pregnancies with no problems! Good luck with your first injection today and please don't let us frighten you I've known lots of ladies who are lucky on their first attempt.
Zhanna Bannana - Wishing you goodluck for your 2nd attempt - Im 41 in a few weeks and certainly feel that this will be our last attempt, 35 is still young so you have plenty time - I only met my husband when I was 36, married a year later and since then we have been trying for a baby both naturally and using every possible course of intervention going!
AFM, I've just started buserelin but as I'm using donor eggs I can't be very specific on dates etc but expecting egg transfer towards the end of august. This is my second attempt with donor eggs and most probably our last. I had a very bad miscarriage in January this year which totally rocked me to the core....I just didn't think that after everything we had already been through to get that BFP that things would go wrong....??!!
I'm quite excited to start treatment but also apprehensive after what happened last time, however think I'm probably more adapted than last time as I know what can go wrong and how heartbreaking it can be.
I'm quite lucky as I dont have a problem about work as i was made redundant in April this year and for the last 14 weeks I have been job hunting to no avail, I'm not too stressed about not working as we get by and have been enjoying some time off. As luck would have it we got our call about our donor earlier than expected and as such the timing is really good as I'm totally chilled, no work stresses, no restrictions on time so I'm hoping that this will help with the stress....that said........last week I got two calls out of the blue and now have I two job interviews....!! eeekk..... Im still going along with them as I will need to work if this cycle isnt successful.
Here's hoping that this is a lucky tread for us all and that we can support each other through this rollercoaster ride which is IVF!!
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 4:30 pm |
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Sorry fingersandtoescrossed....missed you off my post....sorry hun! like I said to Shopgirl please stay positive, there are lots of success rates with 1st attempts. Use this board as the ladies on here are very supportive, I didnt use last time during treatent but got so much support during the difficult times. It really is a life saver. Looking forward to cycling with you
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 8:27 pm |
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Hi all
Sorry haven't replied sooner but manic week at work, feeling a little low as lots of family/friends announced pregnancies and have some who have children already and take them for granted which is really upsetting to me and to top that off my mum and sister have both been in hospital this week! STRESSFUL!
Zhanna and Sar - No you haven't put me off at all. I know that there are going to be ups and downs and possibly a disappointing outcome but I guess that we just need to be positive and believe this will be the time for us! I cannot comprehend the heart ache you must have gone through already but i will be keeping my fingers AND TOES crossed for everyone!
What a nightmare for both of you living so far from the clinics. I am only 20 minutes away from northampton clinic and that causes me stress getting there. There is a satellite clinic just over the road from me but Norhtampton has advised that it would be best to continue to go there for scans etc evening when stimming.
Sar - I am having problems with my weight at the moment. i am a comfort eater and i have put on about 1 1/2 stone in the last couple of months just waiting to start injecting. I keep trying to lose it but i last about a week before I start eating again. CARE have been great. They never mention anything about weight just say that as long as I am healthy and happy all is fine with them!
Funding - I don't qualify for NHS as i am not 30 yet and it is male factor infertility and the funding has been a big issue for us. I hate to say that the cost was part of the reason i am egg sharing but I am also really glad that my main reason is to help someone who is in the same position as me and having difficulty conceiving. I just really hope that all goes well and i dont end up letting my recipient down.
Hi Taz and Shopgirl! Welcome! i will be keeping everything crossed for you guys too.
Shopgirl - I am starting my buserelin injections on Thurday evening. Had to wait 21 days since the start of my last period to start injecting and i am on the long protocol. I go on holiday on sunday so i am hpoing this will help me to ease into the treatment although i am hoping that i will not suffer from any side effects as i am going to tunisia and it is HOt HOt hot there at the mo which will not mix well with hot sweats etc! lol
Taz - all is forgiven for forgetting bout me! I look forward to cycling with you too. I am starting buserelin on Thursday and I am donating. I am really happy to be helping someone and hope that whoever is donating to you has a really good cycle and can give you the best possible chance of success!
has anyone had any side effects from any of the drugs? Do you bruise alot from the needles?
WOW - this is a long post. I will end it now before you all get bored of me rambling!
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Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2011 10:21 pm |
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Thanks for the encouragement girls! You haven't scared me off either! My DH & I are trying to be super positive for this. If it doesn't work we will be disappointed anyway so we might as well feel some hope & excitement! We are holding onto the fact that at least the chances are far higher than the IUI we had!
first jab is done! wasn't too bad at all. Glad that first one is out the way now!! I'm using Menopur.
I have to apologise as I am trying to keep up with the posts so I am not sure where about everyone is upto.
We are self funded also out of Manchester. we were referred for NHS funding & qualified for it (although I am under 30 too but I have polycystic ovaries) but all NHS funded has been abandoned in my PCT so we have no choice but to fund the cycles ourselves.
I also have a weeks holiday off work which has timed quite nicely with this first week of my IVF so hopefully I can stay relaxed!
Ill keep you posted on how I am getting on this week.
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Posted: Sun Jul 24, 2011 10:38 am |
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Hi ladies,
Fingersandtoescrossed, it is a wonderful thing that you are doing by egg sharing, whatever are the driving reasons us IVF ladies know how hard it is living with infertility and any little help goes such a long way. I am so grateful to my donors for their selfless gifts, without them, and people like you, I wouldn't have the opportunity to try and have a baby myself. Both of my donors have been altruistic which means that they are donating their eggs without having treatment themselves, the eggs are divided between two couples. I can't thank people like you enough for giving me this opportunity and I am sure your recipient will feel the same way. Please don't worry about letting your recipient down, what you are doing is giving someone without any hope, hope and whether things work out or not she will never forget what you have offered.
I too comfort eat and suffer with my weight, I've just lost over a stone to try and improve my chances of success but know that after a few weeks of injections that it will be back on before you know it.....but hopefully it will be worth it. I have PCOS too which also makes it difficult to lose weight but very very easy to put it on!!!
Unfortunately when we are going through treatment all we see are babies and people announcing pregnancies without any worries........I'm sure it's around us all the time but we just aren't as sensitive to it, it's like everything is in technicolour when we are going through treatment. sorry to hear about your mum and sister, hope they are getting better?
Shopgirl, you sound like you have the right attitude, positivity is the way forward and you have to believe that it can work and it can. I love reading all the positive posts on here from people just like us who have been Lu ky and have fulfilled their dreams, it's what gives us the strength.
Glad to hear your first injection when well, i always feel excited when I start injecting, which probably sounds rather odd!!! but what I mean is that I know that things have begun and that in a few weeks I may well be pregnant....yeah! I hope you are feeling the same?
Hi also to Sar and Zanna, hope you are both ok and enjoying a relaxing weekend
Sending lots of positivity and baby vibes to everyone
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Posted: Tue Jul 26, 2011 9:24 am |
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Well good morning ladies
My gosh so many new people how fantastic, hello......
I hope everyone is ok and that injections etc are going well.
Shopgirl and Taz I was so sorry to hear about your miscarriages. They are such a hard things to deal with arent they. Something so wanted is taken away and it hurts so much. I totally lost the plot when it happened to me. I dont know about you but I think about it every day.
Sorry Taz to hear that you lost your job what a flipping shame. Fingers crossed though that one of these two you have interviews for will come up trumps for you.
Fingers!! LOL that makes me laugh so much when I type that I imagine some gangster LOL LOL LOL. Sorry to hear about your mum and sister I hope that they are doing ok. How handy for your clinic to be so close. Hope your hols goes well I have been to Tunisia a few times it is soooooooooooo hot but very nice. Stayed at Port el Kantoui and Hammamet and I love the little village of Sidi Bouside! Sorry spellings are terrible.
I never had any side effects at all on my last run. I injected in my tummy near my belly button and I was told to push the liquid in slowly as it doesnt bruise as much. It worked for me mind you jab time took a little longer but it was worth it.
What a shame shopgirl that your funding got cancelled.
I am glad I am not alone re the weight issue. I am so naughty chocolate and me just go hand in hand. I try so hard then I get tempted. Honest when I walked into the clinic I thought they would tell me to get out as they didnt deal with heffers!!!!! LOL.
I have had a very stressful time with the chemist over the weekend I was meant to collect my trigger injection on Friday and when I went to collect it they hadnt refridgerated it and I was arguing with 6 staff members in the chemist saying that it was meant to be refridgerated and that I wasnt going to accept that one. Then they rang their supplier who confirmed it should be kept cold and then they said they had no more in stock. I have fretted all weekend and then yesterday I was on to the chemist again chasing up and trying to ensure that this time the injection would be delivered and stored properly. I also reminded him that I was sure it was more than his jobs worth to give out drugs that have not been stored properly!!! You know what he couldnt have been nicer to me and his staff had a complete change of attitude to to me when I went last night to collect it. So I finally have every thing I need so can start as soon as AF arrives.
I am really trying to get excited about it all but I am worried that it might all go wrong again. How on earth can I get up some excitement? Its hard when you doing it alone. My friends and family are wonderful but they too are holding back as they dont want to see me go through all that pain again. I have been wondering as so many things seem to have gone wrong over the last couple of weeks that someone is perhapes trying to tell me that I shouldnt be doing it.
What a wonderful thing to be able to egg share I am too old to do that but I would have loved to have been able to help someone.
Well must go I have prattled on for too long now.
Take care everyone. Hope I haven't missed anyone out if I have so sorry.
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Posted: Tue Jul 26, 2011 10:22 am |
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Hello everyone,
Hope you are all ok?
Just a quick one for Sar. I still think about my baby angels everyday, I would have been 34 weeks pregnant on thursday. Whilst I never got to hear their little heart beats the hospital confirmed it had been twins when I miscarried. I totally understand your anxiety about starting treatment again and I have to keep telling myself that it worked last time so it can work again!! Its hard not to be terrified about the worse happening again but theres just as much chance of it actually working this time and how wonderful would that be??
It sounds like you have had a nightmare getting your drugs sorted out and that isn't going to help with your stress, perhaps look at it this way....you are having all your stress now so that you can have a happy, relaxed and successful pregnancy.....get all the bad stuff out of the way now!!
Im just taking each day as it comes ad trying to stay calm and positive. The drugs make me feel lousy but then I tell myself that my donor is going through all this just to give me a chance so how can I possibly complain about feel uck.
Please don't think you are ever alone in this quest, whist you may be a single mummy to be there are lots of ladies on here like us who can support each other.....afterall most men don't handle this IVF game too well so we all need support!!
Sending you positive vibes, hope your AF comes soon so you can start your exciting journey.
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Thanks Taz. That brought a tear to my eye. I know I have got to start chilling out and take every day as it comes. Twins hey ah its tough isnt it every day they go through your mind. i had a little service at the crem for my baby it was so lovely did you do anything like that?
I dont know if you believe in phsycics but I have seen lots and they have all told me that I would have twins a boy and a girl. Now I go to see a very gifted lady who never knew anything about me having IVF or having a miscarriage and she told me a few weeks ago that I had just lost a baby girl but she could see a baby boy too with black hair and blue eyes which is the description of my new donor funily enough. I have blond hair so I thought it strange she said black hair. She told me I was to be positive and believe that it would happen again and I hope she is right i really do. I never told her I was going for IVF and I literally only said hello how are you before she sat down and started telling me all these things. I do wonder now the other people that have said I would have twins thought that because my two (fingers crossed) pregnancies would be so close (there would only have been 4 months between me losing my first and perhaps getting my second) that they assumed they were twins. Who knows! I know some people don't believe in all that but I do.
I just think all this stress has worn me out and I need a break. I am so tired I am off to bed now mind you I was up at 5 this morning i seem to be having problems sleeping at the mo. i got to work and it was all closed up i was too early!! LOL.
Thanks again Taz. I am sending you a big hug. Men! what are they like some are good, some are bad and some are just not worth bothering with. LOL Mind you it must be a hard thing for them to go through too. I see them sat in the waiting room looking like they are spare parts not knowing what to do and I have to smile. God knows what they think of me when I turn up with my mum and dad (he had to come too he said he didnt want to miss out!! LOL) I do have to laugh because when I go in to see the nurse they sit in the waiting room and everyone in there must think Jesus they are old to be having this done LOL LOL LOL.
Right I am waffling now so off to bed. Sleep well.
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Posted: Wed Jul 27, 2011 9:16 am |
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Hi Sar,
LOL......the story about your Mum and Dad made me laugh so much.....I can just imagine the other patients faces!!
I do believe in phsycics, I saw one a long time ago who told me she could see twins, Im not sure if that related to me or not as shortly after one of my friends announced she was having twins but sadly lost one at 12 weeks, her little boy is now 5 which shows you how long ago it was!! We had the opportunity to have our tarrot cards done the other week, all my husbands friends (and wives) were having it done and kept coming down and telling us that this woman was amazing!, my DH (and me) really wanted to go and see her but I pursuaded him not to....I just felt that I/we would focus too much on what she said so near to treatment so we decided to give it a miss.
I really hope that your present lady is right, its something that must give you some hope, especially the description about the donor!.....quite exciting! I too have had a funny sort of premonition dream shortly after I miscarried. I vividly saw my DH with a little baby boy whose colourings where the complete polar opposites to me but the vision was so clear I remember everything about it, the clothes the baby boy was wearing, his hair, eye, skin colour....just everything....I told my DH at the time, it was quite upsetting really because it had been so real. Anyway, the reason I tell you this is that when we got the call about the donor the first words were that this wasn't really an ideal match for us (our previous donor was a true match to me from hair colour, skin colour etc...sorry I can't be specific but Im concious of confidentiality etc) however this lady is so different to me (albeit like my husband), however her description matches the baby boy in my dreams exactly........!!!  I like to think that this is a good thing and keep that in mind all the time when Im feeling a bit low or negative about the treatment.
I know what you mean about the poor husbands in the waiting rooms, My DH is wonderful but really struggles with the whole IVF process, at first this really upset me as he doesn't want to talk about things. He really suffered after our miscarriage and vowed he wouldn't let us do this again....but time heals doesn't it and here we are again. He is still finding things really difficult...guess men just handle this differently to women?
When do you break up from school (think you said you were a teacher?) hopefully this will give you some much needed chill time. I am sure you will feel differently once you start your medication and keep focusing on the little boy with black hair and blue eyes!!........I know it works for me and its so good to be positive about what could happen. Live for today and worry about tomorrow tomorrow!
Hope everyone else is ok? Sorry if i am dominating this thread  I guess Sar and I are in very similar positions but hopefully we aren't deterring any of you from joining in? Please keep us posted on whats going on with you.
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Hi Everyone
Hope you are all ok. How are the injections going? I need to get my practice needle out of the cupboard tonight and have a go at injecting my orange!! I know I am sad. It's something I have to do. I worry about the injections as I dont like needles so playing with my orange helps LOL 
Taz - OMG you made me go cold after reading what you put about your dream and your donor. How strange I do hope that it comes true for you. I am glad you didn't think I was a nut job with the predictions etc. I am on hols soon I do work in a school but I am on the admin side of things. I am feeling a little more positive today I saw a baby in a pram and my heart flipped over which is a good sign for me because I have been very closed since April. I have also been taking Cyril my stuffed monkey (its a long story) to work he is just baby size and the lady I work with does a blog which is about the life of her monkeys (Monkey and Darrell) its called mums monkey and it is so funny (google it if you have 5 mins you would think the things were real they do so many things there is a different adventure every day). All the ladies at school have a monkey now it has become a bit of a cult following I think she has loads of hits and people keep asking her to send them these monkeys. They are like the PG tips monkey. I think Cyril who is a chunky monkey is my substitute baby LOL.
Well honest ladies I am not mad just waiting till my mate becomes famous and then I am going to work for her as her PA when she is in Hollywood making a film about the life and times of Monkey, Darrell and friends. LOL.
Right must go I am hungry now and need food.
Catch up everyone and let us know what you up to.
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Posted: Wed Jul 27, 2011 8:39 pm |
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Hi All,
Just wanted to say that I am really busy at the mo and for some reason I can't post on my phone.
So I am still here and reading post if not replying.
Hope you're all well
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Posted: Thu Jul 28, 2011 2:32 pm |
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Hi everyone,
Hope everything is going ok?
Zanna - lovely to hear from you, how are you feeling these days excited about starting your treatment?
Shop Girl - hope you are ok and getting used to stabbing yourself everynight!! You are on short protocol so Im guessing things are moving along quickly, when is your first scan?
Fingers - I think you start your injections today, hope it goes ok? Not sure whether you are in Tunisia now or if its this weekend you go? anyway hope you have (or are having!) fun.
Sar - I checked out the mums monkey blog.....its totally brilliant! your friend should be copyrighting that as Im sure it would make a great children's book or even virtual online book.....love the monkeys....how cute!
Anyway, a difficult day for me today, my grandma died this morning, she's been really poorly for the last 8 days so in some ways it is a bit of relief that she is no longer suffering but still very sad. She was a ripe old 91 (would have been 92 in Dec)  I would have liked her to have met my babies (be that through successful treatment or adoption) but I know that she will be looking out for me so thats comforting especially as I am now moving along in my treatment.
Take care ladies
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Posted: Thu Jul 28, 2011 3:42 pm |
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Hi Everyone
oh Taz I was so sorry to hear about you gran. Grans are such precious things I adored mine. I thought the same when mine died that they would never see me get married or have children. I do however think that they are looking down on us and are there with us every step of the way. My mates mum past away before she had her daughter and my mum stepped in as her birth partner as her hubby didnt want to be in on the action so to speak and i was abroad at the time. Well half way through her labour the door knocked and my mum was right next to the door and she opened it and no one was there and to this day my mate swears it was her mum knocking to come in. I have lots of odd things happen to me like that so you just keep talking to your gran because she will be right by your side chuck.
I am glad you liked mums monkey it changes every day so pop on and look at it when you have time.
Just been to the dentist and had a filling in one of my back teeth. It wasnt hurting me but I thought I had better get it done because knowing my luck it would start playing up if i got pregnant and then i would have to start explaining to the dentist who I have known for nearly 30 years why i didnt want an injection!! I some how cant imagin that he would get that I wanted a child by donor sperm. I do have to judge who I speak to it about as some people can be so funny.
Anyway must go and see if the lady who was just giving me grief on ebay has realised that I am not being funny with her but just dont understand the bloody system. She got right ars*y with me and it has upset me and I havent quite worked out why she bit my head off. Some people can be so bl**dy strange. I am probably one of the most honest people you can find out there but i dont think it pays you to be now adays because you just get trampled on.
Hope everyone is doing ok?
Zhana I had that problem re not being able to post from my phone and I realised that what had happened was that I had set up the account by phone but as soon as i started to use a computer to answer people my phone stopped being able to be used to reply on. I could read messgaes but not reply. Most frustrating.
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Posted: Thu Jul 28, 2011 5:37 pm |
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Hi Ladies
Counting down the minutes before hubby is home to do my first injection. Both excited and nervous. I actually got him to inject me with a spare needle the other day so that I could see what it was like. I threw a little bit of a hissy fit but it wasn't too bad. Hoping the actual drugs don't make it hurt too much. i am not good with needles.
Taz - thanks for the comments. I really hope that we all get what we want from this nightmare and the lady i am donating to has success. I am worried about letting her down but I am trying not to let it get to me.
Have you had your interviews yet? If you have i hpoe they went well and if not fingers crossed for you.
Sorry to hear about yoru Grandma. I am sure she will be looking over you and waiting to see any children you have.
Sar - thank god CARe do deal with heffers coz that is how i feel at the moment! Just got no willpower to lose anything at the moment. Chocolate isnt my problem it is FOOOOOOODDDDD in general!
I will share some of my excitement with you if you want OR get excited for you. We all need to be positive but i can't imagine what is going through you mind. I am having the most doubtful thoughts at the moment and this is my first time.
I can't imagine why anyone would be funny with you for wanting a baby not matter how you go about it?! you arer right there are some strange people out there.
Shopgirl and Zhana - I hope youa re well. xx
Please forgive me if I miss people I have a mushy brain at the moment and whilst i do love the forum I am finding it hard to piece everyone's stories together and then reply appropriately.
Luv
F&T
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Posted: Thu Jul 28, 2011 5:38 pm |
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Oh I am on holiday from Sunday for one week. I am hoping that it will make the first week go quickly and by the time I get back I should have my down reg scan and then start stimming so I am hoping that it will make the cycle go really really quickly.
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