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Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

Haaaaaaaaa i double dare my self to ring x

not yet booked any thing i think it will be a hotel, cant get self catering as DH cant get fri or mon of so may have to be social Smile

he was hoping to get time off but he cant be pickey at the mo, I think you best get your skis ready sounds like your subconscious mind has made the desision for you. Lets see if you dream of hot beaches tonight Smile

Can you be flexiable about how much time to have off after? What im i know 3 days i feel a bit bruised although i know im not my flu is just sore, ive been a bit sorer today, mon tues were just like light period pains with an occ pulling pain. Now its like ive strained my self could have i suppose got to sit down or stand up slowley or it hurts, not made me cry so it cant be that bad watched jack arse 3 omg the pain from laughing i had to hold my self did not stop though Wink

I suppose if your job is not physical ? but if your busy and on your feet all day then i would defo have a wk at least, i will let you know how i feel pain wise tommorrow if it helps i can give it out but cant take it Wink

But bleeding wise has not been a problem gone back to normal pads (got tenas in for MC day) clots only come when i wee or wipe. But i know were all different, you ski and ride a horse i bet you will be well hard back in work the next day Wink

How are you coping Sadie x x
Big hugs to you both xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

wow ive topped all 3 pages proves im a freak with nothing else to do x Wink

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

Morning guys how are you two x x

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

Hi hope you guys ok ok, ive just come back from the hair dressers. Managed to hold you know the usual conversations, yeh im good thanks, no not been away yet & not sure what im doing this wkend ? I think i did ok ! Picked up my friend from the shop nice and cold out of the fridge x

Gona have to wait for one of you to post now or its just going to be;
JC page 3- ha get it sorry lame i know ! x

MrsSadie · 30 Jun 2011

Hi you two,

sorry not been on for a bit, been keeping busy which I suppose is no bad thing!!

JEP - how are you feeling about weekend? I am sure you will be fine. I think if they're flexible about work then that would be great for you. If it was me I would book the week then see how I feel when Thursday comes. If, like me, it doesn't happen on the day it'll happen a few days later and you will need to be somewhere private. You won't know until the day though. Wishing you lots of luck for the weekend and I'll be thinking of you xx

JC - my best friends have been cold out of the fridge as well!! Are you feeling any better?? I like that you're on so often it gives me something to do too!!

My DH wanted me to say hi to you both and he hopes your both ok - he likes to feel involved and he, like me, has shared all our feelings!! We bought a nice terracotta pot yesterday and a lovely yellow minature rose called 'our dream' which seemed really appropriate. We buried baby yesterday and I am so glad he is so close (just outside the back door so I can share my morning brew with him!). We've been into town today, it was nice for just the two of us to be out. Mum was out with one of my aunties so we had a quick drink with them before heading home, have had a nice M&S tea and DH bought me a bottle of champagne yesterday (my favourite!!) which I have nearly polished off!!

I just wish none of us were going through this it just feels so sad,

Sending big hugs to you both,

Lots of love,

Sadie xxx

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

Oh sadie that sounds lovely i imagine him dreaming right now with J & F Smile

lets hope as we have each other our little ones are all together now in spirit x x x
how are you feeling phyicaly i'm not as sore today but avoided hoovering i think it would of been to much so DH did it downstairs for me Wink

i find my self out side talking to juniors stone bet the neighbours already think im barking anyway x x but glad you have posted good to hear from you will check back later x

Big hugs xxxxxxxxxx

JEP · 26 Jun 2011

JC - good on you for getting your locks trimmed!!!! You managed to survive the hairdressers interroagations - you should have made up some funny story to tell her - that you'd just had a job offer to go work with Kylie Minogue in Oz as her dancer, or maybe that youd just got back from a trip to the moon etc etc. Im lucky that my hairdresser is a good mate and we now sit in her conservatory with a brew whilst her kids make me look at their new toys - I don't have to have fight the questions off now!! Any news on your hol - got booked into a nice hotel? when are you going? you thinking of UK or a bit of sun?

Sadie - lovely that you can share brekkie and your thoughts with your babe every day. Well done. Think the champers is a great idea. Does it feel weird now knowing he's sorted and resting or do you feel peaceful about it? I wonder if I will feel a bit empty and I wont know what to think about when this little chapter is over. apart from the next go! Like you say JC - we then need to get back to being 'normal wives' for our wonderful supportive hubbies. Sadie - bless your DH for saying hi - say hello back - Mine gets a daily update from me as to whats happening on the forum. glad you got to be together today - lovely to be able to chill and mooch around together & that you could meet with your mum too. when are you going back to work?

AFM - shattered today - didnt sleep well & manic day yet again. only going to be more busy tomorrow. Im seriously wondering if i should reconsider my longer term job plans but I'm not sure if Im just not coping very well due to all this IVF stuff ontop as Ive loved my job the last 5 years. We rely on my job for the extra cash that makes life nice - holidays, cars etc (as well as the mortgage!). Hubby has said tonight if I wanted to drop a day he would support that 100%. Secretly I think he'd rather we sell up, sack our jobs off & go and live at the seaside (he is a windsurf dude!!!) in a nice little house with the poochie. You kind of get used to all your nice stuff don't you but he reckons we could live in a tiny pad as long as it had an open fire he'd be happy!!! I'm not going to make any silly decisions & just hope a babe comes along then I can have my maternity leave then go back one day less and be a mummy on that day instead! fingers crossed the dream comes true one day hey?

Izzy was due her rpt scan today so Im going to pop over to the scan thread to see if theres anynews.
Keep going girls - well done on getting through it all so far. you can both start to look to the future now & I'm hopefully not far behind
Love
JEP
x

MrsSadie · 30 Jun 2011

Evening,

JEP - I'm not at work for the forseeable future I did what you and DH are dreaming of!! Had a really stressful job and was offered a very attractive severance package (local government cuts) I took it in March to spend more time with DD (she was just starting school and they made it clear they would not let anyone in my post do part time) it was the job or my life, I chose my life. You do lose life's lxuries but it makes you realise what's important. I wanted to concentrate on my relationship, being happy and my DD but also the IVF - we so want our own child although I couldn't wish for a better step dad for DD. My Dad died last year at 55 and that made the decision for me he worked so hard all his life always working towards what he would do in retirement and it never came for him, his life was snatched away and all those pensions meant pennies. He always said to me from being young I'll die in my fifties, like his parents before him and three other brothers and sisters. And the realisation hit me what if that happens to me? It could be in my genes after all?? So I'm having my retirment now!! Although I must admit during this difficult time I miss the distraction you will both get from working.

JC - Thats a lovely thing to say about our baby's. I love the idea that they'll all be together helping each other just as we are. Well done for going to the hair dresser, bet you feel better now, a bit more human?? Know exactly what you mean about being a wife again, I feel the same. I've tackled the legs and just got the eye brows to do now - I can't believe I've only just realised I look like a wolf!!!!! x

Its a strange feeling now baby's gone you do feel empty and lost, I don't want to make you feel worse JEP I think its just reality. Thats why I'm happy he's so close. This is the final stage. It'll get better, it will for all of us. My auntie said me and DH look so grounded after it all but I think we both know its just a front. No one other than us know the hurt we feel or that horrible longing and empitness.

I just wanted to say guys I know I already have a DD and I know that feeling of not having a baby and the longing you feel and the hurt you feel at other people having children. I just want you to know I still feel your pain, I so want to give DH his first child and even with another child i still feel that pain. I just want you to know I try not to mention DD and I really hope that when I do it doesn't upset either of you. I remember that feeling xxx

Let's be positive this time in three to four months after a good rest and another cycle we will all be together celebrating a healthy baby growing insde us, one that all three of us so deserve. Our dreams will come true.

Thanks you guys for your support it means so so much to me,

Lots of Love,

Sadie xxx

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

Hi guys x

Ive not got time for a bit of sun Sad

DH can't get of work tomorrow or fri (can't be picky if we have IVF to pay for) so i've rang a place near yarm (love it there pretty) and they said they will do us a deal for a 2 night break Â£300, self catering, our own lodge, space, hot tub !!!!!!=romance ps did the deed it did not hurt so hopefully be a nice wkend lots of walks Wink

relaxing no stress . But now im worried i won't have internet acess in case either of you need me , will look into getting a doggle tommorrow if i can ? need to get my note book of my brother hes only had it for over 4 mt mending it Smile

JEP you should go to the sea side we will all join you and all have natual pregnancies. All our DH can sit together and boast how fab we look. Or we can all just meet up and your DH's can tell mine how important it is for me to go part time Wink

one can dream alovely dream x

Big hugs all round xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
ps i might try logging in off my phone so ignore any screwed up messages Wink

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

Sadie we posted at the same time again i will just read yours x x

MrsSadie · 30 Jun 2011

Oh JC if you can't get internet access don't worry we will be fine, just happy that'll you be having the lovely relaxing weekend away you deserve!!

I can totally advocate part time!!!! And DH said he will certainly persuade DH for you!!

We did the deed too Smile

It didn't hurt and was glad we got that first time over with, hopefully a nice romantic weekend for us too soon!! JEP - its you next!!!! Wink

Big hugs xxx

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

Sadie we will never think bad of you for posting about you daughter, i imagine your cute 4 yr old when i speak to you. I just think i need a little break from being Auntie J to about 8 kids regulary so thats only why im keeping a distance the toy cuboard has been closed for 8 wk now i feel like a bad arse i dont bregrudge others just trying to shield my self - i know it may seem daft but out of my friend im the longest relationship, longest married yet other have 2-3 kids ! i just cook them food all the god dam time Wink

Sadie you are right about it hitting you you baby's has gone after the event i think thats why i felt so lost and down but JEP ours are already with Fraggie x x x

GIB GUHS HEEEEEEE sorry lame again i wonk Wink

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

Sadie we need to stop meeting like this , but really need to get the DH together i've always wanted to go PT Wink

I think

is just deserved all round can you belive one web site recomened we take precautions after a MC, no way can you imagine using a condom now Haaaaaaaaaaaaa as if x

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

Ha by phone so much happier now don't think i would have booked tommorrow if not x so it better work there you guys were there for me so im here always j and our dh s whom i believe we all love dearly Wink

any way to be frank Jep get a Wink

in tommorrow i can only say it does the world of good x x

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

PS by the way i were thinking positive about the future i ve set up a email to change contacts cause if any one changes from care or we have differrent cycles who knows i was just thinking one day it would be nice to meet to ? or i also thought see bored off work, ive set up a face book site so we could share pics on i know it prob wont be needed now, but before the wkend i might pop Juniors resting place on even if its just for me i can see it x any way i know its easier here for group chatting which i could not of lived without no pressure but if you do want to swap contacts for down the line its jcxcare@gmail.com i do want to share my real name nearly said my D so many Smile

same with facebook jcxcare which i was gona give a group name if you wanted give me another wk off i would design our own web pg or get my bro x x

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

Still no word of Izzy really worried for her now hope you guys are ok xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

well off i go to my hot tub (think ive stopped bleed to which is good)

hope you guys are ok, i will be thinking of you both
good luck JEP fingers crossed it goes ok for you
love jc xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

MrsSadie · 30 Jun 2011

Hi you two,

Think setting up a contact to swap pics etc is a great idea!! I will do the same. I'm not too good with facebook though! Maybe we could all meet with our babies once this is all a distant memory!! Its been great being able to chat to you both like this, its really helping me through!

JC enjoy your weekend away, so glad you've stopped bleeding for it too!! Enjoy every second you deserve it!! x

JEP - how are you? Are you feeling ok about weekend??

I had far too much to drink last night and suffered this morning as a result. I couldn't remember going to bed - apparently I fell asleep on the sofa and when DH woke me to go up to bed I went ballistic at him and called him alsorts! I honestly don't remember a thing!! Oh dear - I suppose one blow out can do no harm?? And DH said it was funny!?

Got myself a pizza express pizza, nice salad, and ben and jerry's ice cream for tea!! DH is working till midnight and DD is spending the weekend with her Dad so I've got the house to myself. I've loved all the support I've been getting at home but it will be nice to have a couple of hours to myself!

Do any of you know anything about the contraceptive pill and IVF?? I'm going to post on the general forum, I've heard people mention they were on it before a cycle but was unsure what for. The reason I'm asking is I have irregular cycles due to polycystic ovaries, some cycles can be between eight and ten weeks apart and I'm aware you have to wait three cycles before starting again so worse case scenario for me that would be thirty weeks away!!!! So I was thinking if I go on the pill it will force me through my cycles quicker but don't know whether that would cause a problem or not or just pump even more hormones into me?? I'll obviously ask at review but thought I'd ask about it on here as I've heard of it before. There is no chance of a natural miracle with us, so being on the pill wouldn't bother me.

Anyway I'll pop on later when I'm full of pizza and ice cream!!

Lots of Love,

Sadie xxx

MrsSadie · 30 Jun 2011

I'd not thought of it before now but it just suddenly popped into my head ..... I would have been ten and a half weeks pregnant now ..... and then I remembered that feeling of being pregnant for a split second until I realised how empty my stomach feels now Crying or Very sad

JEP · 26 Jun 2011

Hey guys

I wonder if you can read this jc? Is your phone working? do you know - I really hope in someways you can't log on as you deserve a weekend off without thinking about miscarriages etc. Time to focus on you & your hubby. However im sure that in actual fact being able to pop on for a read will be 'therapy' as you probably need weaning off here over many weeks!

Sadie I'm mot surprised that you had a sudden realisation of your gestation etc - we are just over 10 weeks on dates too and I keep thinking about how big my belly and boobs would be if little fraggle was growing like he should be. I'm sure in mid April 2012 we will also be thinking about it too. I was daydreaming when driving back from work tonight as to what DH would have selected for dinner. I knew it wouldn't be a chinky but possibly pizza like you. Well- we have pizza express piza for tomorrow night & there was a steak and veg dinner ready to go. Getting my strength & iron levels up before tomorrow! Yum so now sat with a glass of vino just contemplating a not very nice weekend ahead. I'm just hoping it all goes vaguely to plan - and no flat tyres on the way home!!!

Sadie - as for pcos and the pill... All I know is they offered it to me before I started my SP to get me started but as luck would have it I got my period anyway. I too had thought the same thing about the possible time for managing to have a couple of cycles before we try again. Good thing to ask about. Were you on metformin too? I've read up about it since. It is used off licence and isn't even in the guidelines but in theory it helps ladies with pcos get pregnant and can help reduce the miscarriage risks? They have some evidence for it. It's a cheap diabetic drug and whilst I felt a bit weird for the first week of being on it I got used to it ok. I tell you both - we'll be qualified gynaecologists by the time we're retired from this ivf game!!!

Afm - awful night sleep again. Woke up early hours of the morning with a real sweat on, literally dripping off me. Thenpanicked fraggle was giving me an infected womb, then got anxiety generally followed by a funny poo! Have calmed down a bit now and just think its probably stress more than anything.

Right better go - got a DVD on although I've not watched the first 20mins I intend to try & catch up!

Hope you are both ok. Try to have restful nice weekends to recuperate & feel 'you' again
I'll let you know how we get on!
jEP
X

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

Hi only me x jep don,t worry about the bowels i think mine woke up as well for attack this am after so long trying too poo its weird Wink

i m sat at the side of my hot tub dh says hi i only booked this this am don't think i would of done if i could not check on you guys cause i feel you held me up when i needed , had this c3 phone for ages but not really used the internet, anyone heard from izzy let me know here if you do please. I cried when i read that lovely message to my dh we do deserve z nice wk but im still Here if you need me x our 3 babies our playing away i know x i hope you enjoyed the pizza sadie and we will be thinking of you jep i may of been lucky but just a note i think my pains were stronger after straining too hard love you guys x x ps we enjoyed pink bubbles of the drink type x x

MrsSadie · 30 Jun 2011

Glad you're having a good time JC, pizza was lovely but ben and jerry's ice cream was better!!

JEP hope all is going ok today with your first tablet and its not making you feel ill,

Off to Mum's tonight for the last time as she's moving on Thursday, very very weird, I only remember that house, we moved when I was eighteen months and so many memories of Dad. Oh well there comes a point where everything moves on!!

Will pop on later,

Sadie xxx

JEP · 26 Jun 2011

Morning chicks. Still woke up at 6.30 even though we were letting ourselves have a lie in! The ward were good - rang them & they said to go in a bit later so pooled in for 10am. We didn't wait too long. The nurse sorted us out & the doc did the paperwork. He will be putting the pessaries in tomorrow - urgh! Rather do my own. Think after doing 4 a day for the last 6 weeks maybe I know where my cervix is!
So now sat at home having a relaxing afternoon before it all starts. We feel ok so far. I've dropped a few comments into conversation with DH to make sure he know what is in store tomorrow - I feel I know what to expect as you guys have told me but didn't want him to be too shocked.
Sadie - enjoy your last night at 'home' with mummy. Have a nice time reliving memories and have a drink with your dad. Will she still be living close to you when she's moved into her new place?
My parents hardly ever text as it takes them so long but I had a lovely one from my dad today saying I was his little angel & they are inspired by how we are dealing with everything. They live in the new forest - they moved when I left uni & got a house with my DH (then boyf). It's about 2.5-3 hrs drive to see them. They do come back quite often every few weeks as my g'ma is near here still & my bro and sis-in-law with their little girl. They come back to do babysitting and sorting stuff with my g'ma so it's not that bad.

JC hope you having a nice time with hubby on your romantic getaway. More oink bubbles are required I think!

Right I'm off to make the most of this sunny afternoon
JEP
x

MrsSadie · 30 Jun 2011

Hi JEP,

Glad its gone ok for you today, you're right to do some relaxing now before it all starts tomorrow. I know what you mean about the thought of the doctor putting the pessaries in!! My doctor was quite young and very 'bumbly' if you know what I mean, I was so relieved when the nurse said I can do my own pessaries!! Maybe ask if you can do it yourself? Especially since you're now an expert!

Mum doesn't live too far - more or less down the road - she's not got anywhere to go yet though!! Its all happened so quick she's looking to rent somewhere not too far away, she'll be staying with my auntie and uncle for the time being which is closer to me than she is now! Going to be an emotional night!! To be honest I don't see her all that often even though she's close but I tend to speak to her most days. I've heard the new forest is lovely, what a lovely place to settle down in, and for you to have hols in!! Wink

JC - hope you're enjoying your break and your weather isn't too bad. Apparently we're getting a heatwave next week!! Not that you'd know it looking at the rain out of my window!! I agree with JEP - get more pink bubbles!!

JEP lots of luck for tomorrow, I'll be thinking of you both and I hope you both get through it ok. I'll be checking for you later tomorrow.

Enjoy your evening ladies,

Lots of love,

Sadie xxx

Jc x · 30 Jul 2011

Hi guys yeh we had more bubbles shame my dh likes them too Wink

having a lovely time had a bit of a hangover this am forgot what it was like, then it upset me again, but picked my self up and carried on cause life does x x sadie i hope your not too sad when you say goodbye to your house and im sure your dad will be with you & your mum were ever you go big kiss x jep glad today was not to bad sign consent swallow seems normal practice for them but we will always remember our babies who were not ment to be Sad

take alight tAmpax with you i found it really easy just popping the pills at the end and then if you need to move you won't be to worried about losing them im sure they will let you do it your self i think after all they let me take mine home but she did say the consultant let me cause of my job but i do boys with willies don't do flus hope it goes ok which it will x x i will bob on tommorrow x and im sure i will be online all day Mon big kiss Smile

x x