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 Posted: Mon May 24, 2010 8:57 pm |
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Janette
Thank you for your message. Keep praying as the fat lady hasn't sung yet.
Love Chelle xx |
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| Wenna |
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Posted: Tue May 25, 2010 1:02 pm |
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Chelle hun i'm so pleased that Bernard has been looking after his mummy and little brother/sister!!! I'm keeping everything crossed for you that he can keep up the good work.
Congratulations now you be gentle on yourself and get lots of rest, so happy for you!!!
Love Wen xx |
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Posted: Thu Jun 03, 2010 5:15 pm |
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Hello sweetheart
Well tomorrow is the big day. I hope you are still watching over us and give us the strength we need whatever the outcome.
I will be saying a little prayer upto your star tonight. Please look after us.
love you always
Mummy xx |
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Posted: Fri Jun 04, 2010 10:56 am |
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Chelle,
Thinking of you all today & hope that all goes well for you xx |
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Posted: Fri Jun 04, 2010 4:04 pm |
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Sweetheart
Please take care of your angel siblings. 3 perfect babies I have lost now. Look after yourselves and mummy will see you one day soon.
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Posted: Fri Jun 04, 2010 4:25 pm |
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Chelle sweetheart.
Its just not fair.
I'm just absolutely gutted for you.
I just wish there was something I could do to help, but of course I know that there is nothing that will take away all the pain you are in at the moment. My little angel darlings Kitty, Bean and Grace will be playing with your three perfect little angels, and watching over us both until we can all meet up again. I hate June as a month, bad things always seem to happen to the best of people.
If you need me let me know honey, I'm here for you.
Alex xxx |
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 2:45 am |
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Dearest Chelle, i too am so saddened by this news, it isnt fair..
words seem so inadequate as nothing will ease the heartache you are going through
with much love at this difficult and sad time janette... |
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 11:07 am |
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| sorry for your news chelle n dave ,all our little angels will be looking out for each other ,life is so un fair ,ialways keep asking myself why why do horrible things always happen to the nicest people ,i just dont understand xxx take care thinking of you both xxx |
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1st son born icis oct 08
bfp FET may 2010,sadly m/c
fresh cycle june 2011, cancelled due to ohss
dec fet BFP pls stay with us xx
jan 8wks scan sadly no heartbeat 
fet july bfn end of the road |
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| Mel |
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 4:13 pm |
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Chelle
So sorry to read your sad news, was praying for good news and am sorry that it wasn't to be.
Take care of yourselves, I know there is nothing anyone can say or do to make things better for you but do keep talking.
Mel xx |
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After years of tx and heartache we are having a family via adoption. 2yr old DS moved in June 08, AO granted 18/12/08 - A Forever Family Dec 09 starting again for #2 :)May 10 approved for #2...Found our daughter, can't wait to meet her |
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Posted: Sun Jun 06, 2010 9:35 pm |
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Chelle
I am gutted for you and your DH.
Your post is so brave and so heartfelt to your little babies, I am sure they know how much Mummy loves them.
Take care and just know we are all thinking of you and rooting for you to hold your babys soon. It is so painful to know that good people are still waiting. Look after yourself, you have been through a great deal.
Elizabeth
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Posted: Sun Jun 06, 2010 9:40 pm |
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| Chelle, I am so, so sorry xx |
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Posted: Tue Jun 22, 2010 6:25 pm |
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Hey babies
Hope you are sending the sunshine to make mummy smile. I feel so sad today. It's 1yr today since you left us Baby Bernard. 2weeks since your siblings left us.
I haven't done anything special for you today, I don't want to remember the day you left and went to play on the clouds.
I hope you are looking after your siblings, to us they are and always will be our twins.
I have 3 very special Angel Babies, I feel so special that you were and are a part of our lives. I just wish all of you were down here with us instead of so far away.
Everyday I ask 'Why?' There are never any answers.
I so want to be with you all, I will one day soon and can't wait to pick you all up and swing you around and listen to your giggles and kiss you dimples.
Mummy loves you all so much xxxxxx |
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Posted: Tue Jun 22, 2010 8:12 pm |
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Chelle
This is such a sad post, I really feel for you, I can't pretend I know how you feel as I have never carried a baby, but I know the feeling of loss for your own child.
Take care, and try to stay strong.
Love Debbie xx |
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Posted: Wed Jun 23, 2010 8:51 am |
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Chelle
nothing I can say but wanted you to know I am thinking about you
(((((((hugs)))))))
Love Emerald xx |
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Posted: Sun Jun 27, 2010 2:01 am |
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It's almost 2am and Im still awake, sat in the back yard. I want to bawake because my baby needs a feed or because Im almost 12 weeks pregnant and am spending far too much time at the loo, not because I keep thinking of my babies in heaven.
Im sat in the yard so I can see you all, the brightest stars in the sky. I wiah I was up there with you.
It's been a tough week, the worst I've had so far since losing the twinnies. I knew the hurt would come and I couldn't carry on as normal forever but it still huirts so much. Nobody around me seems to be suffering like this. It's life as normal for everyone else. I know they miss you all and I don't know if they are trying to be OK for me but if thats the case I wish they wouldn't. I need to see this is hurting them aswell as me. |
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Posted: Sun Jun 27, 2010 3:37 pm |
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Dearest Chelle,
I am sending you the biggest CYBER HUGS xx
Your post so touches a cord with me, if I was with you we could cry & talk together.
All that you express is so understandable, your hopes have been built up for your angels to be taken away from you.
I too have been sleeping very badly, some nights waking every hr, others not sleeping at all. Like you, I think of getting up to my babies. it seems like every situtaion is there to remind us, like a torment..
Allow yourself to grieve, be gentle with yourself, your feelings are acceptable & totally understandable.
Thinking of you x
Nicky xx |
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Posted: Wed Jun 30, 2010 12:49 am |
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Chelle, (((hugs))) Been thinking about you and how wondering how you're doing.
I've been doing a great deal of gazing up at the stars in the lonely early hours also, wishing and wondering... To the brightest Stars that shine. Keep strong hun xx |
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Please be my turn!! TTC far too long!
Rct M/cs incl. Dyllan @20wks & Nafisa-Angel @16wks. Born with angel wings - Too perfect for this world. |
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Posted: Wed Jun 30, 2010 1:28 am |
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Well I'm still awake at stupid O'clock again. This time with horrendous heartburn so trying to calm it down with milk as Ive run out of antiacid stuff.
Nicky I wish we could chat and cry too, sometimes I think Im the only one grieving and everyone else's life is back to normal, although I hate the fact other people are going through this its nice to know Im not alone and the thoughts and feelings I have are not that of a crazed women (iykwim).
Kobe although I wish our babies were with us I love the thought that they are the brightest stars, we named a star after Bernard on his due date so I know he is up there waiting patiently for the cuddles and kisses I will smother him with.
We have another hurdle to get over. Ive been having HCG tests done weekly and they have gone down to 99 but then the last one on Fri went back to 130 so it looks like there is still some pregnancy tissue left. I have to have another HCG on Thur and if it hasn't dropped a D&C on Fri. I hate this, it's just prolonging all the hurt. I was due to go back to work today (well Tue) and have been told to stay off until I know what is happening. I don't know how I feel about the D&C, it just seems so heartbreaking. My head says if I need to have it done it's for the best, it's just tissue and nothing more but my heart says it's part of my babies and I'm getting rid of them. I know thats stupid but we can't help how our hearts work can we? I hope I don't upset anyone on here that has had to have a D&C or anything else, I don't mean to Im just trying to get out how Im feeling about it (probably not in a good way).
My symptoms are coming back too, heartburn, sickiness and sore boobs, probably cos of the HCG still in my body. It's such false hope. Again my head knows it's just tissue but my heart can't help soring at the thought that they got it wrong (I know they haven't but it just gives you false hope)
Thanks for listening
Chelle xx |
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Posted: Wed Jun 30, 2010 7:53 am |
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Chelle,
I wish a few words could help but as i can't even begin to describe how devastated i am for you i doubt they would come close.
Always here for a chat day or night
C xxx |
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Posted: Thu Jul 01, 2010 1:36 am |
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Chelle, What a lovely idea to name a strar after Bernard, I keep thinking about this, but have star things around the house so comforting. (we buy a plant and something like a candle or a star decoration etc after each loss)
So much of what you say is so familiar. Especially about the D&C but at the same time you're being tortured with all these symptoms and if they find it to be the case you could be at risk of infection if they don't remove everything. That's what I was told. There's no easy way is there Chelle, I wish there was hun. Also I felt like I was the only person upset about my baby, felt so alone, turned not to be the case -Hubbies are just not so great at this emotional showing and grieve so differant. Could you let him know you feel this way. He may open up then. Have you contacted The Miscarriage Association? They do some great info online. Really does make you feel that you are normal, you're not mad for feeling how you do, and to offer support . I hope you get this HCGs issue sorted. Go easy on yourself. Love Claire xx |
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Please be my turn!! TTC far too long!
Rct M/cs incl. Dyllan @20wks & Nafisa-Angel @16wks. Born with angel wings - Too perfect for this world. |
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Posted: Sun Jul 04, 2010 11:21 pm |
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Chelle - Thinking of you at this difficult time. Hope you are managing to sleep better.
How did it go when you went back to the hospital?
Take care hon, be gentle with yourself, BIG CYBER HUGS x
Nicky xx |
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Posted: Fri Jul 09, 2010 4:44 am |
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Hi Chelle,
Just wanted to say I am so terribly sorry to read of the loss of your little twins, life is so unfair. xx
I hope in time you will feel better, big hugs and tons of strength.
Loads of love,
Nicole xxx |
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Posted: Fri Jul 09, 2010 6:51 pm |
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Thanks girls for the thoughtful messages. Looks like we have all had trouble sleeping from the times of the messages.
I didn't have to go into hospital last week. The HCG had come down from 130 to 111, it's not as low as it has been but atleast going down. Ive had more bloods done today so hopefully when I get the results on Monday it will keep going down.
Me and DH went to Blackpool last weekend for a long weekend break. I know it isn't much but just what we needed. We are hoping to go away at the end of the year somewhere nice and sunny (although Blackpool was very hot!!)
Im starting to feel abit better. DH has been off all week so it has been nice to have company. I go back to work on Monday so Im sure that will help too.
Nicole good luck with this cycle, I am crossing EVERYTHING for you.
Love Chelle xx |
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Posted: Fri Jul 09, 2010 7:00 pm |
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Hi Chelle,
I am glad you had a nice weekend away and that it lifted your spirits a little.
Thank you for your goodluck wishes, I too need loads as I have many Immune Issues, so lets hope the drugs help.
Loads of love to you sweetie,
Nicole xx |
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Posted: Sun Jul 11, 2010 10:05 pm |
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Chelle -
Glad you are starting to feel a bit brighter in yourself. Your long w'end break sounds like it was a good tonic. Nice for DH to be around for the week too.
Hope your return to work goes well tomorrow, thinking of you x
Nicky x |
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