CARE Fertility Bulletin Board

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Evening ladies,

Hope you are all keeping well.

First of all - Leeann - I am so sorry about all thing.... No point to ask how you feel - thinkg it's pretty obvious. Take it easy and look after yourself... Sending you big hug!!! xxxx

I've been busy all wend - resat course I've already taken (healing course) - just to spent some time with beautifull people, receive and give lots of healing and take my mind of things. It was amazing to see and understand things, why everything's happening the way it is(think if I started you'd think I fell of the tree) and to connect to beautifull healing energy. I feel so much positive and calm, though pain is still in my heart. But it's getting bareable.

I am sorry few of you had an answers at the reviews you weren't happy with. Suppose as awfull as it sounds, it's the matter of trial and error. No one can see beforehand how we are going to react to the drugs. Just have to hope that next time will be successfull. To all of you - try not to dwell on it too much and just go with the flow. I know it is hardest thing ever, but by stressing too much about it you'll not help yourself (stress etc.). I am thinking about getting relaxation CD for IVF, as I found it hard to relax during treatment (2ww - worse time ever!!!) See what it does.

Nicster: hope you are coping with building work. Sending you loads of patience and strength!!! LOL x

Wibbly: thing looking for job will give you new focus! Bet when you start - youll be going on maternity leave soon. It's always like that.... (un)wanted 'complications' Laughing

Hel - good luck for new cycle. we will keep our fingers crossed for you.... xxx

Anyway, going to get my beauty sleep! Wink

LOL S xxxxx

leepooh · 12 Apr 2010

Hey Ladies

How are you all doing?

Im getting each day

Leeann xxx

starbright · 10 Jun 2010

Hi all. AF has arrived and collected all my drugs today so will start FET on next AF so end of oct. Still dreading it and will find out xmas week if i have worked my dates out right. Just going try and keep things as normal as possible during this one xx

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hello everyone,

does anyone else feel that what can go wrong this week is going wrong?

AAAAAAAAArrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!

x s x

Hel75 · 13 Apr 2010

Hi,
Oh dear stella, whats happened?
I'm stressing a bit as AF has 'sort of' arrived and am unsure whether day 1 today or wait and see whether day 1 tomorrow (if that makes any sense!!) Rung care but no nurses available and woman on phone said to say tomorrows day 1 if unsure, but still not fully convinced!!!!! Will see how it goes rest of today and start tablets tomorrow! Cant remember at review if she said if AF starts middle or later in day to start tablets following day anyway!!!
Shouldnt stress wil just go with what they've said and if gets heavier will ring in morning and explain day 1 today but tablets started tomorrow.
Sorry, thinking outloud there really!!!!
Hx

Hel75 · 13 Apr 2010

Ignore my last waffley message!!!!! AF definitely here got scan booked for 12th Oct to check lining thickness, having 2 tablets today and then 3 from tomorrow!!!
Hope everyones ok!
Hx

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi Hel,

Will keep all my fingers and toes crossed for you. xxxx

What happened? Some things went wrong, all not entirely through my fault, it was like a plot and what could go wrong, just did. Well - today I nearly got official warning...... What is better though - to sign myself off with depression - because clearly I am struggling, or battling through and make mistakes?

Not sure ladies...... Feel like packing it in! If I could.

Hope you are all ok.

xxx s xxxx

wibblywobbly · 09 May 2010

Hi girls.

Sorry not been on for a while, been really busy at work and home. My BIL and his GF spilt up and we've been the shoulders to cry on! It's a right old mess! Been applying for jobs - not heard anyting yet, but thinking i might be punching above my weight, but nothing verntrued and all that!

Stella - you do what is right for you hun - don't just pack it in though. Why not book some leave or something?

Leepooh - OMG - can't believe that has happened. With all you've been through, you would think a so called friend would be more udnerstanding. Sending you a big (((((HUG))))).

Hel - go for it hun, i have everything crossed for you - time for your BFP!!! xxx

Nicster - how you doing kiddo? xx

Starbright - FET in October - go girl! xxx

Love to all.xxx

nicster · 19 Aug 2010

Hi Wibbly,

I'm sure your not punching above your weight, something will come good for you, you deserve it.

Things not good here, me and DH are going through a really difficult time, havent really spoke for the last week, just dont seem to be able to communicate at the minute. I feel like hes turned into a different person, and not a very nice one at that !

Hello to everyone else.

Nicster x

wibblywobbly · 09 May 2010

Nicster honey, sorry to here that about DH. Do you know what's making him like this? I know it might be difficult, but you do need to try to get him talking. Would writing down how you feel prompt him? Do you have someone you can talk too? If not, i'm here if you need me. Take care honey, thinking of you. xxx

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi Ladies,

Hope everyone is ok. xx

Nicster - I can relate to you. On top of everything at work - we went out yesterday for a day and my DH hardly said a word to me..... Feel like my world is falling apart..... Still waiting for that moment, when 'it will get better' as everyone keeps telling me..
Hope you managed to talk....
Finding that all those drugs and injections - that was a doddle. This is hard bit that everyone keeps talking about.

Wishing a happy and good week ladies....

LOL s xxx

Moan over...

leepooh · 12 Apr 2010

Hey ladies

Hope all is well.

It has to be hard for our DH to go through this too I know you all understand that but we find it easier to talk but our DH's dont so like a typical feller they dont talk or show any sort of emotions but thats a man thing, but then something out of the blue can set them off.

It must be hard the first week all I did was shout at my DH we never spoke but then something clicked in my head and we have not stopped talking since.

Well Im at care on Tuesday lets hope there has been no more damage done even thought they said there wasnt but in the back of my mind it done more damage until im told differenet by care I dont think it will sink in right.

I still cant get my head round why she did it, the only thing that breaks my heart is the fact that her daughter is now in care cos of what she did, it made me think twice about reporting it but my DH said you cant not report it she did this not you. I had her mother ring and try and have ago but my DH told her what had happened and her mother is now going to try and take care of her granddaughter.

I just to my self how lucky I am to be where I am today to where I was a couple of weeks ago, just thankful to my family and all my friends for the help and support they have given me.

Take care

Leeann xxx

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi Leeann,

You were right to report it. She obviously needs help. You did the right thing and her daughter is safer with her nana by the looks of it.....

My review is today, but I don't even know what I am going to ask.... don't see point in it to be honest....

Hope we all have a great day today...

Love

S. xxx

Hel75 · 13 Apr 2010

Hi all,
starbright - how are you getting on, still planning on starting at end of oct? x
stella - how did your review go today? know how you feel bout work, i keep thinking how easy it would be to get signed off for a bit to make life easier, but still there!! x
Wibbly - Any news on the job front? x
Nic - hope you and hubby are okay, leeanns right, fellas have a different ways of dealing with things (although in our house my DHs probably better than me at saying how he feels!!). Hope things right themself soon. x
Leeann - You definitely did the right thing reporting your mate and grans probably the best one for her daughter at the moment. Hope you get on okay at care tomorrow. x
AFM... not too bad, bit wobbly not sure whether thats due to HRT or just thoughts of this cycle in general!!!
Hel xxx

wibblywobbly · 09 May 2010

Hey girls. How you all doing today?

Leeann, you've done the right thing reporting it hun, just like your DH and everyone else on here has said. How did your appt at CARE go babe?

Stella, how are you? how did your review go? did they mention anything that made any logical sense of it all?

Hel - glad you're doing ok chick. How far into the cycle are you now?

Nicster, hope you're doing ok hun? xx

AFM - nothing to report, no news about jobs, still got loads on at work, still giving support to BIL. Definitely not starting again until the New Year. On a plus point, i have finally got back on my diet and so far have lost 4lb in a week, so looking good for losing that 2 stone! Mind you, i'm just sitting here eating a big huge enormous bag of rainbow drops, mmmmm. Have been at uni tonight, first night back, and feel knackered. Bath then bed i think!

Love to you all, take care.
xx

nicster · 19 Aug 2010

Hi Everyone,

Sorry I havent been on for a while, as you know not been having the best time.

Thanks for the offer of someone to talk to wibbly, might just take you up on that !

Stella, how are you, are things any better?

Leanne , thinking of you hun.

Hel, thanks hun hope you are ok, hows it all going?

Well I had my review on monday, basicaly they really dont know why it didnt work it was all text book in terms of how I responded to the drugs, I got a really good number of follicles, it was fine until fertilisation (only one fertilised) they said that the sperm looked fine ( DH had vasectomy reversal so sperm was reason for infertility) however alot of the eggs looked granulated, he asked me if I lived near fields where there might have been crop spraying ! (I dont) he couldnt shed any light on why the eggs might have been like this and indeed if that was the reason for poor result he said that he has seen woman with these type of eggs have a positive result, he has also seen woman have this for one cycle and then be ok for the next !!!!

His advice was to try again but with the short protocol and a lower dose of the stimulating drug, he also said that we should do it sooner rather than later because of my age (40 next august ) .

Feel in such a quandry, things are still not the best with DH, we havent really got the money to try straight away and I'd sort of convinced myself that I wasnt going to try until Jan. Just dont know what to do now.

Aaaaaa

Nicster

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi Ladies,

Hope you are all having nice day. Laughing

Nicster - Sorry you feel bit in limbo. I know it's easy for me to say - try to follow your intuition. Sending you lots and lots of love. xxx

Wibbly - glad you back on track with your diet.... oops - those rainbowdrops!!! You need a treat now and then!!! xxx

Hel - lots of baby dust!!! xxxx

Leanne - hope you are healing fast. xxx

My review went fine. I feel more positive. I wasn't given reason why it didn't work this time (but I didn't expect to get one). It was explained to me, that I had what they call biochemical pregnancy and that is 'good' as ladies who have this rather than BFN have then better chance to become pregnant. It means that embryo has started to implant, but then wasn't meant to go further than it did so ended in very early misscarriage. All this gave me strengt to start after my december period - so it should all happen in January/February. I am starting to feel positive now....
We even laughed, even though it is sad in a way - we have hamster and poor thing is at the end of this life as he is poorly. My DH was given list of supplements to take to improve his 'bits and bobs' and he said (he honestly loves our little HAMI) that as hami is at the end of his life, he will take over his seeds and all he needs is just to be locked in cage to 'be good' ... I know, i know..... But you have to have a laugh. Wink

I am sending lots of love to everyone and look forward to hear from you all. xxx

S.x

nicster · 19 Aug 2010

Hi Stella, that sounds really positive for you, let's hope the new year brings babies for all of us. I think you are right, I need to go with my gut feeling and Maybe it would be too rushed and stressful to do it before Christmas ! What supplements did they recommend for your dh ?

Nicster xx

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi Nicster,

He printed sheet from his computer with all that. I'll post it here tomorrow. x

S x

nicster · 19 Aug 2010

That's brilliant Stella , thanks

Nicster x

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi Nicster,

I have set new email box with address stella-star1@hotmail.com.

Pls send me your email and I will scan what we've been given. It is 2 pages A4 format, so would prefere to send it to you.

Hope that's ok. If you set maybe new email so we stay 'incognito' ...... xxxx

Sending you love. xxx

leepooh · 12 Apr 2010

Hey Ladies,

First off all thank you,

Didnt make to my appointment i was in to much pain so i rang them and they have made my another for November just to male sure everything has healed right.

Hope eveyone is doing ok sorry not been on as much but as you know i have had alot on my mind which is easing now.

Leeann xxx

Hel75 · 13 Apr 2010

Hi... everyone okay?
Had scan today and body doing what it should be!! So start pessaries Friday and have ET booked for Monday!!!
Stella - did i read a post last night thats now gone? Are you okay? xxx
Hel x

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi Hel,

I so hope it works out for you. Bet you are exited! xxx Laughing

I am really struggling. It is like a wagon that you don't know how to get off. I saw Ruth at Care Manchester yesterday. Didn't think she'd help, but she did. Even though it all needs time and I won't feel 'right' overnight.
Never ever in a milion years I imagined I will end up feeling this way. Lets just hope I will keep my job going.... xxx

Enough of moan. Has anyone anything nice to report?

Nicster: how are things? DH? and house? xxx

Leeann: hope you are getting there. xxx

Wibbly: How are things, your diet? xxx

Sending you all love.

Stella xxx

wibblywobbly · 09 May 2010

Hey girls.

How are you all doing?

Stella - all good here. lost the plot on the diet, but still going to the gym/swim so not totaly lost all!

Leeann - hope you're ok hun? Think you're wise to give it a bit more time. x

Nicster - still here my love - if you need/want to talk. xxx Don't rush into anything unless you are absolutely ready.

Hel - good luck hun, fingers crossed for ET.

AFM - nothing much to report. No news on the job front, not starting again til after Xmas if we decide to! Gonna take each month as it comes for now. Awful thing is that it is quite nice being back to normal.

Love to all. xxx