| ShellyM |
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Today was your funeral Noah and we said goodbye to you. I hope the other babies will be your friends in the clouds. Please keep your Grandad company too and give him a big hug too as I am sure he will you.
Mummy and Daddy were very sad today and we cried a bit too. We left you some pretty flowers and a poem in the garden where your ashes will be scattered, we hope you like them.
The pendant with your footprint arrived today too, which means you will be close to me still. I know Sophia would have loved you so much too and when she is old enough to understand we will tell her about you.
Sleep well my darling angel and sweet dreams
Lots of love
Mummy, Daddy & Sophia
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Jun10 Nat miracle, Noah born asleep at 15 wks
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| Namolls |
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Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 12:35 pm |
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Shelley darling
I am so sorry for your loss.
It is just so unfair.
I am thinking of you lots.
RIP beautiful baby boy.
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Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 1:45 pm |
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Sending you all my love at this time
Alex xxx |
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| Snoflake |
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Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 2:36 pm |
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Oh Shelly hun,
I am so sorry. Nothing can take the pain of your loss of Noah away, but you will always have your memories - even though they might be painful, you got to say hello for such a short time. Life is so cruel, and far too short for some.....
Take care, sending you (((hugs))) and thinking of you.
Love Julie xxx |
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| Briony |
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Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 10:06 pm |
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{{{{HUGS}}}}} from me too, what a hard day for you. 
Love Briony |
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Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 10:25 pm |
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| Thinking of you all, so sorry you are having to go through all this xx |
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| Robbo2 |
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Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 10:36 pm |
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Thinking of you all at such a sad time
Robbo x |
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Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 11:32 pm |
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Im so so very sorry .....there is nothing i can say to help but love always
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| kitty1 |
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Posted: Fri Oct 22, 2010 3:30 pm |
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Thinking of you Shelly, so sorry for your loss.
Kitty xxxx |
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| Hutchy |
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Posted: Fri Oct 22, 2010 5:54 pm |
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Thinking of you and big hugs to you all...
Hutchy xx |
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| Claire_G |
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Posted: Fri Oct 22, 2010 8:59 pm |
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Hi Shelly,
Im trying to find the right words to type, but I just cant.
So so sorry for your loss. I didnt know that he was a little boy, what a lovely name.
I cant imagine what you must have gone through yesterday.
The pendant you have had done sounds lovely. As you say he will be close to you still.
Lots of hugs ((()))
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Claire G x |
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Posted: Sun Oct 24, 2010 7:38 pm |
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| Thinking of you all (((hugs))) xxxxxxxx |
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Posted: Mon Oct 25, 2010 1:06 pm |
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(((Sending you big hugs)))
You keep that pendant close knowing that Noah is right beside you.
Elizabeth
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Posted: Mon Oct 25, 2010 1:44 pm |
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Much love to you all. The pendant sound beautiful and a much treasured possesion.
Love Chelle xx |
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| ShellyM |
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Posted: Thu Nov 25, 2010 12:51 pm |
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My Darling Noah,
Mummy has been feeling sad again. It would have been your Grandad's birthday yesterday and it's the first one without him, we took some nice flowers to his grave and I comforted Grandma. I hope you gave him a hug and a kiss darling.
We also found out that your chromosome results are back now to see if you we're poorly before you left us. Mummy and Daddy have to go to the hospital to talk about them with a doctor. We're both a bit scared as we didn't want you to have suffered.
We're also trying to arrange to go back to Spain to try with our little snowbabies, but Mummy is so scared again as she doesn't want to loose another baby, but i'm also scared that I will never have another baby too and so desperately want to have one growing in my tummy again because I miss you so much. I hope you will look after us when we go to Spain and send us a bit of luck.
I think about you every day my sweet Noah and my heart and my hands still ache because I long for you to still be with us.
All our love
Mummy, Daddy and Sophia xxx |
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6 x BFN
08 DE Spain - BFP!
Jun10 Nat miracle, Noah born asleep at 15 wks
Dec11 Nat Mir mc 6wks
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Posted: Thu Nov 25, 2010 10:09 pm |
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Thinking of you Shelley.
Yesterday must have been a hard day to get through (((((HUGS)))))
I hope that the results you are waiting for don't cause you anymore pain than you are already going through.
Take care and lots of love
Michelle
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| ShellyM |
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Posted: Sat Dec 11, 2010 7:48 pm |
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Hello sweet Noah,
Mummy & Daddy had a tough day last week as the hospital made a mistake and we didn't find out if you were poorly when you fell asleep. I hope you wasn't hurting when you left us.
I think about you every day and although I do not cry as many tears the longing to hold you in my arms never goes away. I know other people may think we should be over this by now, I know I never will.
We decorated our tree today and Sophia helped, we bought a little angel with your name and date of birth on and it's hung in the middle of the tree so you know we will be thinking of you. We are going to the memorial garden next week where your ashes were scattered, we have a little teddy to keep you company, I hope you like it.
I think it will be a tough Christmas this year, I should be heavily pregnant and feeling your kicks but instead I am empty, with it being the first Christmas without my Dad too it will be doubly tough.
Miss you always
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08 DE Spain - BFP!
Jun10 Nat miracle, Noah born asleep at 15 wks
Dec11 Nat Mir mc 6wks
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Posted: Sat Dec 11, 2010 11:56 pm |
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| Robbo2 |
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Posted: Sun Dec 12, 2010 10:53 pm |
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Shelly
Just wanted to send big hugs. I've been away on holiday and only just catching up on everyones situation. I'm so sorry for the mess the hospital have made and that you are having such a hard time coping. Of course Christmas will be hard without both Noah and your dad - try and stay strong for little Sophia.
I know how desparate you are to have another little one and how scared - I've been there too. You have to have strength and determination to even contemplate the IVF route - and even more to go again after such a late loss - I'm sure you'll find it. We pulled through and had a number of BFN's before getting lucky again with our DS - he was so worth all the heartache and effort to get him and I would go through it all again if it gave me him at the end of it.
Big (((hugs)))
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| ShellyM |
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Posted: Mon Dec 13, 2010 5:07 pm |
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Thank you all - just sometimes i find it easier to write on here when i am having a down day.
I always stay strong for Sophia and I know we are so lucky to have her. Any sadness I feel is kept out of her sight, I guess it's why I sometimes find it tough.
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6 x BFN
08 DE Spain - BFP!
Jun10 Nat miracle, Noah born asleep at 15 wks
Dec11 Nat Mir mc 6wks
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| ShellyM |
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Posted: Tue Jan 25, 2011 9:19 am |
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My darling Noah,
I still think of you every day and I miss you so much, it's coming to your due date in a months time and I know that is going to be a difficult time.
We have started progressing the treatment of our snowbabies now and i'm scared, please watch over us all Noah and help those babies survive. You will always be Sophia's little brother and we will never forget you.
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Jun10 Nat miracle, Noah born asleep at 15 wks
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Posted: Sat Jan 29, 2011 10:43 pm |
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Just want to say Im thinking of you and sending you good wishes.
You sound such a strong lady,protecting your girl from your pain and sorrow.
I hope your little boy is with mine, up in the clouds. They will always be in our hearts, always with us, wherever we go.
I hope your treatment goes well, and your dreams come true.
You truly deserve it.
Kerry xxx |
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| ShellyM |
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 1:38 am |
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My Darling Noah,
I am sat here in tears, the frozen embies we used showed a negative today, i couldn't sleep so i woke up Daddy so I could do the test. You would have been born tomorrow by c-section and I know i was silly doing treatment at this time but i was hoping to make a sad day a little happier.
I feel like i've let everyone down again, i can't give Sophia a Brother or Sister and I can't give your Daddy another child.
I think about you darling all the time and Daddy, Sophia and I will go to the cemetery to visit you in the baby garden and take you some flowers.
I love you sweetheart
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Jun10 Nat miracle, Noah born asleep at 15 wks
Dec11 Nat Mir mc 6wks
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| Robbo2 |
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 9:33 pm |
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Oh Shelly I'm so so sorry. I know the devastation of failed treatments - even more so when it's at a time that our lost babies should have been with etc etc. Be kind to each other and give Sophia an extra big cuddle tonight.
Big (((hugs)))
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| ShellyM |
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Posted: Fri Jun 24, 2011 4:50 pm |
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Hello sweet Noah,
it's been a while since I wrote on here but I still think of you every day, your Sister Sophia is growing up very fast and she will soon be two.
I am feeling a bit sad as this time last year I found out I was pregnant with you, the dates still stick in my head. I was so excited but you were taken from me too soon, my precious son, i miss you so much.
Last month I thought I was pregnant again but I was just late and my hopes were shattered again, I hope above all hope that you will send us a gift from the clouds and give me and your daddy another natural miracle, I never could replace you, I just long to hold another baby in my arms.
All my love
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