CARE Fertility Bulletin Board

jomosh · 03 Feb 2011

Hi

Well it has taken me nearly a month to get back onto the forum. My last cycle hit me hard because I had convinced myself that this time it had worked. My first (fresh) cycle ended almost as soon as it started with a bleed within a few days of ET so when I didn't bleed this time I thought I was on for a BFP.

I can't even look at my old thread to see if anyone that I was cycling with got their BFP's, I feel tight about that but I literally cannot be happy for anyone else at the moment, although I don't wish anyone any bad luck. I know this may sound inconsiderate and cruel but it is what it is.

I went for my review last Friday and was told that if my next 2 AF are regular then I am on target for my third and final cycle with my one and only remaining (save the best till last) embryo with my September cycle so I am praying for this to come around quickly.

On a positive note though the consultant told me that if I was to try for another fresh cycle he would recommend that I did, apparently, although I am 40 he says my ovaries have not been told they are that old Laughing

I have made a positive move to lose weight also, I have ordered a 3 monthm plan with Diet Chef. I have put on 2 and half stone since January with my last 2 cycles so in order to get myself as fit as possible this is what I have to do.

Anyway I must go for now (supposed to be working up some hours) so anyone that wants to join me in the long wait to their next attempt are very welcome (its only when you get a BFP and I get a BFN that you are not, only kidding of course).

Take care everyone

Jo x

E&B · 23 Feb 2011

Hi Jo,

So sorry about your BFN. This just doesn't get any easier to cope with does it? So pleased you have had your review already and have a snow baby to try with in September.

I was in the Feb BFN group with you before and as I've got my BFN this morning I'd like to come and join you here if that's ok. I found that the group support really helped last time when things went wrong. We have no frosties so we'll be going fresh again (for the 3rd time!) next. Not sure when, we had planned to get married if this attempt didn't work but now I think I'd just prefer to try again and spend what little money we have on ivf.

I have loads of work to catch up on so will post properly later. But for now I just wanted to say that you are not alone and together I know we'll all get through this.

Much love

jomosh · 03 Feb 2011

Hiya E&B I remember you.

Sorry to hear you're in the same boat as me with regards to the BFN. Its rubbish isn't it when you want to be positive but know you can't be. The false smiles etc.

I don't seem to do too bad with my reviews. Both cycles I had my review within 2 weeks and although I didn't get the outcome that I wanted the consultant always made it easier if that makes sense.

My DH and I are planning on a fresh cycle in the new year should my last little frostie not make it.

When are you planning on your new cycle? Do you still have to wait a couple of AF's before starting even with a fresh cycle?

Oh it's a difficult one really about getting married or saving for the cycle. It depends on whether you want a lavish ceremony or a two-bit civil ceremony with a meal for your nearest and dearest. I would imagine your DP wouldn't mind either way if you have been together through all your cycles then the trust and bond is already there. I got married 8 years in September and I didn't even want children then but I really wanted to get married to show my commitment to my DH although the majority of people these days would say why get a bit of paper to show committment. It's a hard choice but whatever you choose you won't do it on a whim will you? Glad it's your choice and not mine Laughing

Do you have your review date yet?

Oh and of course you can join me, very happy for the company

(and support) Cool

Speak soon

Jo x

E&B · 23 Feb 2011

Morning Jo,

I donâ€™t want to do false smiles. I want to stay in my house and not face the outside world! Iâ€™ve had numerous friends texting me but I just feel so anti-social. No one I know understands how it feels, no one. Iâ€™m so thankful to have this BB!

Just called Care â€“ review is 22nd August. Seems a lifetime away but hopefully it will come round quick.

Are you going with your frostie in September if AF behaves? Thatâ€™s really not long. Iâ€™d like to try again in October all being well â€“ I think they say 3 AFâ€™s but you can go after 2 I think. Hopefully weâ€™ll get frosties in the next cycle too â€“ for siblings!! Thinking positive!

Me and DP had a chat about things last night and I think we have decided on ivf instead of the wedding. We feel that you can get married at any age but Iâ€™m not getting any younger and we can only keep going with the ivf for so long. We are committed to each other â€“ like you say you have to be to go through all this! I do want to get married and do it properly (only intending on doing it once!) but just canâ€™t justify the expense.

Have you got anything nice to look forward to over the next month or so? Weâ€™ve decided to book a couple of cheap weekends away and are going to go into town tomorrow on the train for some shopping, eating and drinking, just the 2 of us. I feel like we need to have some us time as this whole process doesnâ€™t half take it out of you.

Anyway best get on with some work. Am working from home this week but Iâ€™d much rather be lying on the sofa watching Glee Laughing

!

Hope you are doing ok today. Take good care of you

Tigger83 · 25 Jan 2010

Hi ladies,

Firstly I just want to send you big hugs. I havent yet managed to get to et stage of ivf but have seen enough bfn's over the years to know the heartbreak it brings. It is incredible how strong we can be when we need to be.

Just wondering if I can join you? Im currently recovering from ohss after another crazy cycle. I ended up getting 31 eggs but only 14 were mature and only 6 actually fertilised. I'm very glad to say we do have 6 embies in the freezer for fet in Sept whilst I get over ohss. I'm very worried that they were frozen as single cell embies so we have no idea how they will do when they are thawed, BUT I'm trying to think positive after my meltdown the day after ec! Think we are going to get all 6 out together and try and get 1 to blast to give us the best chance of success. At least if we lose them all during thawing, it will class as a nil cycle and we will get another fresh cycle on nhs....not that I want to go through it all again, ohss is nasty!

Anyways, hope you dont mind me gatecrashing but its always nice to have people to talk to who truely understand. xx

Oompa Loompa · 01 Jul 2011

Hi,

I was also a July BFN!!

I totally unterstand what you are saying Jo, about others getting BFP, you want to be happy for them - but why didnt we get a BFP as well?? Just to make it fair, but its not like that this IVF rollercoaster malarky! Only those that are on this ride understand how stresfull it really is.

One of my friends recently became a grandma, about a month after I'd m/c in Feb - she now rarely speaks to me as she does'nt want to upset me! I'm more upset that I'm not included. Another friend has just announced that she's due to be a grandma in Jan '12. I made a point of meeting my friend and her daughter for a KFC, to prove that I was ok - its not their child I want but our own!

My review is 23rd August.

I have not frosties left, so the next cycle will be a fresh one.

xxxx

E&B · 23 Feb 2011

Hi All,

Had a hectic weekend (trying to keep busy) so only just come on here. Welcome to Tigger and Oompa Loompa! Will post tomorrow properly but just wanted to say Hi - so glad we are getting a group together to help each other with getting through to the next ride! I hope you have had good weekends and enjoyed the sunshine. I enjoyed it with a few too many glasses of wine Laughing

!

Take good care

Much love

Lizzy26 · 25 May 2011

Hi ladies-can I join you please? Sorry to hear about your bfn. I actually got a bfp but found out soon after that my pregnancy isn't viable. Care have been monitoring me to ensure my levels drop and I safely miscarry. They thought it was eptopic last week but now looking unlikely luckily. Off to hospital today to double check and decide how to end the pregnancy as it continues to grow and my body hasn't recognised it's not viable. I have found the whole thing really traumatic and just want it to end. Like you, I'm really struggling to be around people, particularly if they're pregnant or have a baby. My review is 24th August and just want to start again asap. Gutted that this situation is delaying that.

jomosh · 03 Feb 2011

Hiya everyone

Sorry I've been a bit busy this weekend but welcome to Oompa Loompa, Tigger83 and Lizzy 26.

Big hugs to each of you and just to make sure you don't feel left out another big hug to E&B Laughing

OMG I know we ladies have been through some heartache but Lizzy26....how on earth do you cope with what you are going through? I couldn't possible try to imagine what you are going through, I am so sorry. Glad to hear you are wanting to go again asap though, at least you can think forward to the next cycle.

Oompa Loompa, I get the same disrespect from my mates and colleagues. They think you have suddenly become some kind of fragile imbecile who cannot take in the outside world anymore. There are probably some stronger woman on this forum than anywhere! Evil or Very Mad

Tigger, I have heard of OHSS but didn't really do any research on it. I guess you can know too much can't you however the possibility that any one of us can experience it and at a time is quite overwhelming. I feel for you so much. At least I have been through the ET. I didn't get the result I wanted but nevertheless my body has been subjected to the correct environment.

E&B, what do you do for work, you seem to be forever at it Sad

Good for you for making a bold decision...you are right, you can get married at any age.

It annoys me when people say 'Oh women are having children into their 40's these days' but what they don't realise is that your womb and ovaries etc are past their peak. They just talk rubbish!

AFM - I went for a new tattoo on Friday then met up with my mates and had a good old knees up. Then on Saturday me and the DH and a couple of mates went for a motorbike ride then home for a well needed nap. Then on Sunday my DH took me out for my last proper meal before my diet started, so today I haven't had very much to eat and can't wait for my evening meal already.

Anyway I must go, I am at work myself and my lunch finished a while ago so take care, keep smiling and love to all.

Jo xx

raachel29 · 19 May 2011

Hi girls

I'm a July BFN too. I'm sharing again in September (hopefully!) although AF seems to have packed up and left me :/ I'm on day 35 now, usually 28-30 day cycles so I'm hoping she shows up soon!! xx

E&B · 23 Feb 2011

Hey ladies

How are we all doing?

Tigger â€“ itâ€™s great that you have 6 frosties. I do hope that your OHSS calms down very soon. Are you feeling any better today? Your FET in Sept will come round soon hon. I read some of your blog last week and was totally moved by it. You have been through so much already. Hang in there.

Oompa Loompa â€“ I canâ€™t believe you have friends who are becoming Grandmas! Iâ€™m just about coping with friends having babies! You are so very brave to be around people with babies/kids. I really struggle with it and then end up feeling even worse about things! Iâ€™m on for a fresh cycle next time too. Hopefully it will come round quick.

Lizzy â€“ my heart goes out to you. Iâ€™m so sorry for what you are going through. Itâ€™s good to be positive though and look to the future. I know when I had a MMC I just wanted it over with and Iâ€™m sure thatâ€™s how you are feeling now. Hold on to the fact that you got a BFP as it means you can get pregnant. Sending you lots of big hugs.

Jo â€“ sounds like you had a great weekend. How fab to get a new tattoo! I decided (what seems like a very long time ago) that I would get another one once I had my baby. Lets hope itâ€™s soon! My job is ok, Iâ€™m an admin person. I used to have a stressful job but left in order to reduce stress and help with baby making, not working out too well at the min! How is your job now? I know you went through a really hard time back in Feb. Hope things are better. Hope your tea was nice. Iâ€™ve started dieting too today â€“ how much does that suck? Just when you could really do with some nice comfort food.

Welcome Raachel â€“ are you having a fresh cycle next time or do you have some frosties? How long have you been on this big dipper? I really hope AF turns up very soon. She is such a nightmare â€“ turns up when you donâ€™t want and not when you do!

AFM â€“ first day back at work and it sucks! How does life just go on? I have had a banging headache everyday for the last week too which is getting me down â€“ anyone else had this? Apart from that though Iâ€™m ok and counting down the days to the review. Giving my puss rats lots of cuddles and the DP one or two too!

Sending you all loads of love

Tigger83 · 25 Jan 2010

Hi girls,

Been feeling pretty rubbish today, my stomach is seriously painful Sad

OHSS is simply crap! The care nurses have been fab, ringing me everyday to check how I am doing. They said today that it is likely to be 3-4 weeks before I am recovered. I really hope its quicker, I dont like feeling like this!

Really sorry for lack of personals but I'm absolutely shattered. Will catch up with everyone tomorrow.

Hugs to all xxxx

Stella Star · 24 May 2010

Hi ladies,

Can I join you please?

Jo - I cycled with you previously, I am sorry about your BFN. Fingers crossed for your ET - it will be here sooner than you thing. x

I had my BFN at the beginning of July.
It's horrible, and all the stuff around it. It is heartbraking. I can relate to each of you here.

I have joined slimming world last week, as I want to get back into shape. I also put on 2 stones.
Embarassed

since I started on this journey. Will see how I get on.
I am giving myself break - to get my life somehow back and also to get healthier. If we decide to have another go - it will be sometimes next year.
These months have been really hard on relationship between me and my DH, so we just have to see, if we can survive. There is no point to do it again if we are no in it together as a couple.

Sorry ladies - will have to familiarise myself with the rest of you. Hope you are all coping as best as you can.

Sending you lol xxx

E&B · 23 Feb 2011

Hi all,

Hope you are all doing ok today ladies. Been thinking of you all today especially you Lizzy.

Tigger - so sorry to hear your OHSS is still bad, it must really be getting you down now. You take good care of you and get lots of rest.

Welcome Stella - I was on the Feb BFN group with you before and wondered how you had been getting on. Glad to hear you gave it another go but so sorry to hear it didn't work out for you. It is heartbreaking and so confusing too I find. I want to know why we are not lucky and why others are. I like to believe in fate but I can't see that any of this is becuase of something else wonderful thats going to happen. I want this, not something else! We deserve BFPs, all of us ladies who put our bodies, hearts and minds into this, who put untold stress on ourselves and our relationships, who inject horrid drugs into us day after day and who would make the most fabulous mummies on the planet. I wish I could make this happen for us all and it makes me so sad that there are so many of us who can't achieve our dreams.

Much love to all you fabulous ladies

Oompa Loompa · 01 Jul 2011

Hello everyone,

Raachel â€“ Iâ€™m the same as you, where has AF gone? Usually I donâ€™t want to see her, but on this occasion I do!! Without her visiting a few times I canâ€™t progress to another cycle.

Lizzy26 â€“ How are you, its so not nice what youâ€™re having to cope with.

Tigger83 â€“ Cricky another Â¾ weeks before youâ€™re better. Is OHSS caused be the drugs over stimulating the ovaries? It least with FET you wonâ€™t have to suffer this pain again.

Emm â€“ Iâ€™m very lucky its just my friends being made a gran and not me, as my eldest DD is 24!! Howâ€™s the headache? Work any better? I agree marriage can wait, hopefully youâ€™ll have a LO to play a special part on the day of either a bridesmaid or pageboy.

Jo â€“ Hows the tattoo? Have you started the diet yet? Is diet chef where all your meals/snacks are sent out to you? Good luck with it.

Stella â€“ yes this fertility rollercoaster can put a strain on the most stable relationships. Especially when we are on the doom of gloom medication! Youâ€™d have thought after all these years weâ€™d be given something extra to pick our moods up? I to am at slimming world!!

AFM Well Iâ€™ve been very lucky to be able to hand in my notice at work. After lengthy discussions with my DH, weâ€™re going to give it a try without my wage. I was going to finish work in June when our DD was due, unfortunately it didnâ€™t work out that way and the thought of returning to a job that made me so miserable, just added to the devastation. Iâ€™m so much happier and stressfree now. This is our first month without money! Hopefully I can enjoy my new hobbies of fish keeping and gardening for a while before I'm having to source the 'jobs classified' section!
When I got a BFP last time, I promised myself I wouldnâ€™t over indulge! Hey ho, surprisingly I didnâ€™t stick to it as I was told that Iâ€™d gain weight with the drugs I was on â€“ I saw this comment as an excuse, so between Aug â€™10 and Feb â€™11 I gained a massive 3 Stone, oops!! Iâ€™m now a fully pledged member at slimming world and so far lost 23.5lbs. Iâ€™m on holiday for 2wks shortly so Iâ€™m hoping not to undo all my hard work.

xxxxx

LISA76 · 03 Oct 2010

Hi ladies,

Can I join you? I cycled in July but started bleeding on 1st august ( supposed to test 6th aug). I know I'm not technically July bfn but I think I'll cry if it can't fit this criteria either!!

I'm soo upset, bleeding a little on mon, more on tues and today just like AF. Care told me I can't test til sat but I know it's a bfn because I'm having my full on period?!!

This was my first icsi under nhs. None in freezer. Thinking about egg share if I fit the criteria. I'm a little like you raachel29. I followed your thread and saw you got you AF soon after ET like I did. Have you had your review yet? Can you tell me anything more about egg donation criteria? I know u have to be under 36 and have no ovarian disorders or hereditary diseases . It's considerably cheaper isn't it? I also like the idea of helping other women who are living this nightmare.

Oompa loompa- enjoy your holiday and you've done really well to lose your weight. Make sure you have a littke indulgence on holiday.

Stella- this Ivf and fertility business really does zap the life our of you and does put strain on your relationship. It's so hard. Having a break is sometimes essential. After our 3rd ectopic, I went into a deep depression and turned into a bitter mare. We jumped straight Into iui ( too quick) and the drugs sent me even more hormonal and depressed. We nearly split up when it didn't work . We decided to take a break before Ivf, about 9 months, it's done us the world of good. Even though I'm gutted re AF I'm not sour and don't feel like I've lost myself like I did before.

It's amazing how just a short time on the ivf drugs can affect your weight so much. I'm quite lucky because Im small and don't really ever have to watch what I eat. I don't seem to put weight on easily, however I have put on about 3/4 stone. Doesn't sound much but when your small it looks like quite a bit. I'm not moaning about it, it's the least of my probs at moment but it doesn't help!

Jo- glad you got a tattoo to cheer you up! I'm not as daring ( already got one) but I have booked myself in at the hairdressers for sat (OTD) to get my hair coloured. I'm going back to brown! It's my treat to myself. I am dying for a big fat cold glass of vino! I'm going to wait until Saturday to have it. I feel like crap at mo with headache n back ache, so wNt to enjoy it. Plus I'm trying to give myself something to take my mind off OTD day. I feel so cheated that I didn't even get to test properly. I dont see the point of testing on sat like ivd been told to, I'm having a period. I get why they told me, it's just another kick in the head when I'm down already. Sad

Jo you are right about the fake smiles. I feel myself doing it when people give you their crap advice- go on holiday you will get pregnant, become a veggie that'll help??, go and climb up a mountain in India that will help.... The amount of rubbish that's been said to me over the years is endless. I just smile now and nod.

Tigger- wont be long until you can start putting your embies back inside you hunx

Sorry if I've missed anyone . I'm on my phone and it won't let me scroll up and down easily

Don't give up ladies xxx big hugs xx

MrsSadie · 30 Jun 2011

Sorry to crash but just wanted to say Lisa I'm so sorry you're bleeding has got heavier you must be feeling so bad at the moment.

Look after yourself and rest up, I know you've lost all your PMA and I don't blame you but I'm going to keep a little for you for Sat on OTD - it is possible to bleed like an AF and still have a BFP but I know thats not what you need to hear a the minute.

Take Care and ((big hugs))

Sadie xx

jomosh · 03 Feb 2011

Hi All

This is great, we are getting new ladies all the time to help each other, although in the same sense it's not that good because we should be on the 'awaiting scans' forum.

Anyway welcome to Lisa76 and Stella Star.

Stella - we have a fab frostie left so we have decided to go for it quickly but it's my DH who has said we are going to go for a fresh cycle next year when we have saved up. Trouble is it's my body that has to go through it not his and id he doesnt sort himself out (weight, smoking etc) then we will have to go for ICSI again which just costs the earth when you consider al the other factors. Anyway I don't want to go too far ahead of myself. I may, after all not need to.

Tigger83, I know it's not much but I am sending you lots of love and hugs and hope you mend quickly, it's the worst feeling ever wanting to go again but having to wait for our feeble bodies to catch up.

Em - I am still at the same work place but have gained control of the situation, although I have been told I will not get any bonuses this year because I owned up to something that I didn't do just to relieve any stress but now I am out of pocket and that could have paid for my Setp cycle, as it stands I am having to work overtime every night and saturdays just to get half of what I need. I need a job closer to home and less hours which brings me onto:-

Oompa Loompa - How could you? Laughing

. I was supposed to give up work in October, I wasn't even going to wait for maternity etc. My DH keeps saying we will cope without the money but I would rather be comfortable than cope at the moment. I just hope with everything I have that I can still give up in October after a BFP in September (?)

Lizzy26 - How are you coping honey, don't be a stranger. I really feel for you the most, I really hope things end quickly and you can start again.

Raachel, we should (fingers crossed) be in the same cycle in September if everything goes well.

Lisa75 - Of course you can join us, never turn a good shoulder to cry on away. I was the same in my 1st cycle where my AF appeared long before my OTD. Care just told me to carry on and take more pessaries and test anyway. I basically stopped taking pessaries the day before and didn't do a test. You just know don't you?

AFM - yes my tattoo is healing very well, I am looking like a snake shedding it's skin yuk. I was going to wait till I got my BFP and have a half sleeve of birth flowers but as it stands I have not had as much done as I wanted so I have plenty of space left my DS or DD's birth flower to be added later. My diet is going well (dasy 3) and yes it's the one where they send everything pre-cooked and pre-packed so you don't have to weigh anything out, only thing you add is veg/salad. I will weigh on Saturday maybe and let you know how it's going but very nice at the moment.

Well back to grind stone for me so I will speak later.

Big hugs

Jo xxx

raachel29 · 19 May 2011

Oooh it's getting busy in here! Well my AF has come today. I'll be starting on day 21 of my next period. Another fresh cycle as I had no frosties. I have just been told that my lady is pregnant. I'm really happy for her but a little p****d off that my eggs took for her and not for me :/ That sounds awful doesn't it?! xx

LISA76 · 03 Oct 2010

Hi ladies,

Thanks for making me feel welcome. It's funny how survival instinct kicks In and you just keep the strength to try again. I've decided to try and be an egg donor, I do pray I am eligible.

Raachel- how long did you have to wait to try again. It seems you are trying again really soon. That's brilliant! I hope I can crack on quick x

I've bought a bottle of vino- it's in the fridge chilling! I'm going to treat myself to a glass tonight. I am well and truly having my AF so thought I'd have a little tipple.

Been sat in the garden today with my lovely doggies ( my babies) - fighting on....

Hugs to you all xxx

raachel29 · 19 May 2011

Hi Lisa. I was told I needed my BFN bleed, the one after (which I'm on now) and then I can start on day 21 of my 3rd period.

How long ago did you have the transfer Lisa? I started bleeding really early (1 week after transfer). Keep smiling, it's not over yet xx

jomosh · 03 Feb 2011

Raachel

I don't think you should feel bad, I would be the same. In a funny way though at least you know you have good eggs. They say the first cycle you are rarely going to suceed and now your womb has had the chance to get used to the environment it needs so keep your hopes up.

I am having to listen to children at the moment, I just want to shout can't you keep them quite over there' Laughing

Lisa I have my 2 cats and 2 bunnies to keep me content for now. I just got a new kitty and he is mental and so comical that he makes me chuckle and my older cat is such a love.

Just been told that my egg transfer will not be until October but I start a natural FET with my September cycle (go figure), they know what they are talking about thank god.

Anyway my DH's bangers are sizzling awawy so best go watch them. I get my kicks by smelling his food. Laughing

See you all later

Jo x

raachel29 · 19 May 2011

I've had 2 kids moaning in my ear from 8am this morning lol. Days like this I wish I could mute them! I've just ordered fish and chips :/ I'm thinking the fish is good so it's not all bad lmao Wink

I can try and justify it anyway! xx

Tigger83 · 25 Jan 2010

Hi girls,

What a lovely day its been here, been able sit out in the sunshine reading a book and chilling, bliss Very Happy

OHSS is finally starting to settle down, but boy am I shattered.

Raachel,
Its good to have a focus hunni, I cant wait to get on with my fet. After our 1st time I couldnt even think about ivf for months but I think that was because we didnt even get to transfer stage and there was a lot going on at that time also (dh's stepdad died very suddenly). I'm finding my countdown ticker helpful to keep me focused!

Jo,
Hope you didnt burn the bangers?! Sounds strange what they are doing with your fet? Hopefully we will be able to cycle together.

Lisa,
I've been chilling in the garden with my doggies too, my big baby girl has decided I looked too comfy though and plonked her 27kg butt on my knee!! A nice glass of vino sounds like a great idea, I've just treated myself to a bottle of kronengurg!

Oompa Lumpa,
Sounds like you have made the right decision about work. Wish I could do the same, I really do or at least reduce my hours. Endo really takes it out of me at times and I really struggle working full days. Hope the rest and relaxation is just what you need.

Stella,
There certainly is nothing like the madness of ivf to test a relationship. Its an incredible strain what with all the hormones and heartache. I just try to remember that we had a wonderful life together before this started and know that we can have that again. Try and remind dh that you arent in total control of your hormones and how you react to things. I find it is often too easy for them to forget how much our bodies and minds are going through in this ivf journey.

E&B,
Ive had migraines for 3 days running but care told me that was down to the ohss injection they gave me at ec. I think this hot sticky weather has a lot to do with headaches too. Its amazing the healing power of animals eh? My dogs have been my saviour many times in my life, now as much as ever.

Lizzy,
Massive hugs hunni. I cant begin to imagine what you are going through. Know that you have lots of people on here ready to give you all the support and 'shoulders' you want. Take time to look after yourself and recover from the heartache you are both going through.

Hope I havent missed anyone. Hugs to all xxxxxx

LISA76 · 03 Oct 2010

Ho raachel,

Thanks for info. I had the ET on sun 24th amd started bleeding 1st aug, so pretty much like you. A week after ET. The mon was spotting blood but tues n today bleeding lots. Hopefully, it'll be quicker than I thought. Got it in my head I'd have to wait for 3 periods before trying again.

Been to local pub tonight with friends, one of which is due in oct. She talked about het baby shower for ages. To be honest it didn't bother me as much as I thought, seeing her tonight. After all it is my baby I want not hers. I only had a glass of wine and it felt quite nice.

The sting in the tail for me this cycle, is that this time a lady who sits near me at work, was also having Ivf around one to two weeks before me. I saw her at care when I was there. What were the chances of that hey? Anyway we started chatting about our cycles etc. She had a successful cycle and has her first scan on 10th aug. I obvioulsly failed, so for the
next 8 months I get to look at her, thinking that that could have been me!

Oh well, I keep trying to think that there are people out there worse off than me but sometimes it's hard xx